the shithole abyss that is my wasted life
depression is a bitch. i don't even feel like typing this. i feel like i have wasted today, this month, the four years I've lived here, just everything.
"8 Full Hours Of Sleep"
When you sleep,
No one is homeless.
When you sleep,
You can't feel the hunger.
When you sleep,
No one is lonely in a dream.
Without classes,
Without nations...
When you sleep,
She's standing there with open arms,
And one night could last forever,
And if you asked her,
She'd never let go,
And you'd stay forever...
And the sun's always rising
In the sky somewhere,
And if young hearts should explode
From all the lies they've been told...
Let the new night bring you peace
And the promise of tomorrow,
Where we can wake to a new beginning.
Tomorrow I'll all but have lost their faces;
My friends and family,
Memories of all we had
And the times we should have lived,
And tomorrow America just might fall apart.
Tomorrow, tell me,
Where will you wake up?
Beyond title, beyond these careers and laws,
Something more than borders on a map...
And the sun's always rising in the sky somewhere,
And if young hearts should explode
From all the lies they've been told...
To live through one night like this,
I would trade it for the silence...
Why do I even try anymore? Whats the point...there is no point...ive achieved nothing...four fucking wasted years in lafayette...ive always fucking hated this place and my only way out was going away for the summer....now im here and i see how much it truly fucking sucks...so ill go to cali and piss my life away there, lose my scholarship and be forced to come back home...id rather die. this is all my life will ever be, working all day and pissing the nights away, thinking about how shitty the day to come will be. i dont even give a fuck anymore...i just want all my problems to go away. ive lost it and i know that the things i do wont fix them. bleh im so tired of this, i wish it would all just end. why cant i just talk to her or her. she ditched me, i have no chance with her. and she has as many problems as i do, ive just hid them for so long. i dont know if i can take it anymore.
"8 Full Hours Of Sleep"
When you sleep,
No one is homeless.
When you sleep,
You can't feel the hunger.
When you sleep,
No one is lonely in a dream.
Without classes,
Without nations...
When you sleep,
She's standing there with open arms,
And one night could last forever,
And if you asked her,
She'd never let go,
And you'd stay forever...
And the sun's always rising
In the sky somewhere,
And if young hearts should explode
From all the lies they've been told...
Let the new night bring you peace
And the promise of tomorrow,
Where we can wake to a new beginning.
Tomorrow I'll all but have lost their faces;
My friends and family,
Memories of all we had
And the times we should have lived,
And tomorrow America just might fall apart.
Tomorrow, tell me,
Where will you wake up?
Beyond title, beyond these careers and laws,
Something more than borders on a map...
And the sun's always rising in the sky somewhere,
And if young hearts should explode
From all the lies they've been told...
To live through one night like this,
I would trade it for the silence...
Why do I even try anymore? Whats the point...there is no point...ive achieved nothing...four fucking wasted years in lafayette...ive always fucking hated this place and my only way out was going away for the summer....now im here and i see how much it truly fucking sucks...so ill go to cali and piss my life away there, lose my scholarship and be forced to come back home...id rather die. this is all my life will ever be, working all day and pissing the nights away, thinking about how shitty the day to come will be. i dont even give a fuck anymore...i just want all my problems to go away. ive lost it and i know that the things i do wont fix them. bleh im so tired of this, i wish it would all just end. why cant i just talk to her or her. she ditched me, i have no chance with her. and she has as many problems as i do, ive just hid them for so long. i dont know if i can take it anymore.