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i am so incredibly bored.
it worries the shit out of me that this grounding thing might last a bit longer than i originally thought.
i can handle it
i will handle it
so... last weekend really did change a lot of things. i'm really starting to form a more positive outlook and see the amazing things that i have right now. according to missa, it's really fucking annoying. and... it's really fucking difficult. especially when you're locked up in the house with only thoughts... and memories. i'm trying to figure out how to stop thinking about the past and missing the old, and start focusing on the present. maybe even... the future?
that's something i haven't done in a while.
the thing about not having regrets about the past, though... is that i tend to make more regrets. it's as if when i finally come to terms with what i've done, i just do something else.
things could be different. i just need to stop thinking about how i want them to be and act upon it.
i have the right outlook
now i just need the will to manifest it into something amazing.
it worries the shit out of me that this grounding thing might last a bit longer than i originally thought.
i can handle it
i will handle it
so... last weekend really did change a lot of things. i'm really starting to form a more positive outlook and see the amazing things that i have right now. according to missa, it's really fucking annoying. and... it's really fucking difficult. especially when you're locked up in the house with only thoughts... and memories. i'm trying to figure out how to stop thinking about the past and missing the old, and start focusing on the present. maybe even... the future?
that's something i haven't done in a while.
the thing about not having regrets about the past, though... is that i tend to make more regrets. it's as if when i finally come to terms with what i've done, i just do something else.
things could be different. i just need to stop thinking about how i want them to be and act upon it.
i have the right outlook
now i just need the will to manifest it into something amazing.