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[thewatchyouwear]

is it weird that i'm really excited for valentine's day?
i mean... it's a whole day dedicated to love
just b/c i don't have anyone doesn't mean i can't appreciate that it's out there.
i'm pretty sure i'm gonna be grounded anyways
i'm always grounded on valentines day
michael hated that last year.
it's so weird to think that i actually had a boyfriend
and two weeks later, i didn't.
hm...
i used to hate being alone. all i really ever wanted was a boyfriend to love, you know? to be all cute and cliche with and hold hands with and throw in everybody's faces.
i never thought that i could be this happy having something completely different
having random encounters
and secret flings
according to oprah, the secret to happiness is to believe that it's possible
and looking at the good things in life instead of focusing on all of the negative
he's become such a great thing in my life
i don't have all of him
and i can't give him all of me
but i'm happy with us having pieces
it's different from anything i've ever had
and i think i need that
for so long i had that image, that image of that boyfriend
and i was never happy with what i had because i was so blinded by what i wanted
it feels so amazing to accept things for what they are
but not allow myself to be dissapointed

You smile,
And say the world doesnt fit with you.
I don't believe you, you're so serene.
Careening through the universe, your axis on a tilt, you're guiltless and free,
I hope you take a piece of me with you

And theres this burning, like theres always been,
I've never been so alone, and I've, I've never been so alive