Nov 16, 2010 00:58
Radhika called me yesterday night as well as Aaron.
I walk in the door and called Aaron back right away. I called Radhika back on my break at work this evening after 8 p.m. Almost a day later, and I decide to call her.
I have nothing to say to her.
I've told her multiple times how I've felt about the situation. I cannot express my anger and guilt towards how our....
I have not seen her in over a month. Everytime I saw her, I would always ask what has been on her mind. She used to run away the second I decided to slightly open my mouth to let a few words spill out, then she finally allowed enough time where I, in fact, could carry on somewhat of a conversation that would include "what is important to me."
I value her opinoin. A lot. She is a very important part of my life. Somone who is that important should FUCKING WAKE UP.
Just fucking wake up. How many times do I need to say I NEED TO SEE YOU AND TALK TO YOU ON A REGULAR BASIS INSTEAD OF EVERY TWO FUCKING WEEKS.
I believe she cares.
I just want my fucking friend back. I want to go back over a year when it wasn't like this. Where I could talk to her without having her squeeze in time to "listen" to me. Where I could see her and laugh, and not worry about ......how pre-occupied she is with "stuff."
She claims to be so busy with school, but, then she told me she went to see a concert with her boyfriend on Friday night up at NIU.
I have had the same conservation with her too many times.
She knows things are not the same. And she's trying to make up for lost time.