I tried...

[thevilagemidiot]

So I gave Doru a call earlier. We actually had a nice little talk. We were both very calm and he listened to what I had to say. Unfortunately, he said he has to talk with the rest of the band before he can make a decision

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Re: Its Doru

[thevilagemidiot]

Wow. That's the kind of response I get from you WAAY after this post was made, and after I even still came to the show and helped you guys break down and everything afterwards. I was only kidding about my bass and amp, but I do want them back soon.

Things aren't always going to work out right away, but I know now that they could but only if both of us are willing to try. I am, but I can tell you aren't. I'm just sad it took two whole years to finally figure out how fake it all was. That you guys were simply putting up with me apparently. Things take time. I got so many ideas for keyboard parts watching you guys play last Friday. Too bad they'll never get used since I'm never getting back in.

It's not entirely about getting famous. I loved being in the band with you guys, despite all that happened. The good outweighed the bad easilly. I just snapped that day and I shouldn't have but there's nothing I can do about that now.

I just wish you guys had been honest with me about everything. Had you told me upfront, as opposed to being shady about it, I could have looked at the problem and fixed it. Looks like you guys were too busy talking about it and never saying a word to me while I was sitting there trying to help out with the band and do things that would hopefully make an improvement somewhere.

I know that none of this will actually matter to you or get to you because as always, you've already made up your mind about it and won't listen to a word I say because you're stuck on how you see things and are too stuck on that to see anything else.

I made the effort here. You guys are just sitting back and doing whatever it is you do now. Don't let any of this make you think that I don't still believe in you guys. I think that if you can stick together long enough, that you will make it one day. You want it just as much as I do...getting famous and everything. Just stick with it.

I guess I now realize that what I've been missing for the past month, and still do, was all fake. I've been missing what I thought was there. What I thought it was. So I guess you could say I miss what I thought it all was.

My only advice to you and the rest of the guys is to be totally honest with each other, not like you were with me. Thanks for all the great memories. I will miss it. By the way...you've got a keyboard player if you ever need one.

Musically,

Tim