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[croibhristeoir]

[Why did he feel like talking? Up until recently he'd been concerned with secrecy--he'd finally let himself be honest with Issei, but he wasn't eager to let anything about himself or the Holy Grail War become common knowledge

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[unknownrival]

I... [There was so much in Lancer's words that he wasn't saying and so much Issei didn't know.]

You were there. That Persona I released, I wasn't even in danger myself - I was trying to save an idiot who I knew would never fall in love with me the way I did for him. And that was enough for him to come to my aid, to help me with my wish.

A selfless wish isn't a bad thing in and of itself. It isn't wrong.

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[croibhristeoir]

...I don't think I know for sure anymore.

[He was still so bitter and angry, deep down, but he knew that wasn't fitting of a knight. That anger, as far as he knew, had cursed and tainted the Holy Grail itself in no more than a thoughtless moment.]

All I ever seem to do is disappoint people regardless of my intentions. Can I truly say I wish for others' happiness when all I've caused is pain?

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[unknownrival]

Wishing and causing are different things. You've wished for happiness and things have gone worse than you had hoped, so look at what happened, understand why it happened, and do something differently the next time that situation comes up. Try your best, rather than giving up.

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[croibhristeoir]

...

[The next time? He'd already ruined his 'next time'. The Holy Grail War was his chance to rectify the mistakes with Fionn and Grainne, and all he had done was repeat it all again.]

I won't give up. [None of the Fianna knew how.] But I fear that 'next time' may only be yet another iteration of my failures.

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[croibhristeoir]

...I don't know, Saber.

[Despite what she had said, Lancer knew his bitter words has corrupted the Grail and surely ruined her fondest wish. How could he dare talk about such a subject with her?] Truly, I don't. It's strange, as if there's an unusual weight on my heart I can't shake off. I wanted to talk to someone--anyone.

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[croibhristeoir]

O...of course. [Right. He had gotten so used to her company that he had forgotten she would only stay until she'd recovered. Once she left he would be on his own outside of combat and not sure what to do with himself.]

It's the same with mine as well, or so I would assume.

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[genius_idiot]

Sounds like a pretty noble thing to do, if you ask me.

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[croibhristeoir]

That would be the intention of most knights, at least.

[genius_idiot]

Is that what you are? A knight?

I know I'm not that gracious, and not many people are.

[croibhristeoir]

Yes, I am.

...I've noticed it's a remarkably rare quality in this age.

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[protects_soccer]

I don't think there's anything wrong with that! If you like making people happy, then do that!

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[croibhristeoir]

What if all the attempts I make continue to go wrong?

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[protects_soccer]

Try again! You'll get it right eventually!

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[croibhristeoir]

Do you really believe so? [It was true that the Fianna did not know how to give up, but could he take another possible failure?]

[skaldssong]

...Sometimes, that's about all someone can do.

[In contrast to her usual tone, the woman's words come out quiet, her intonation almost bitter or resigned. Judging from the slight raising of her eyebrows in surprise, this was unintended.]

I guess I should say that it's not a bad thing at all. Just, I think it's hard to truly find satisfaction or your own happiness that way. That if you can do so you're a very noble person - the term, "too good for this sinful earth" comes to mind.

[croibhristeoir]

I certainly do not claim to be perfect. But I would have been content had I only been able to fulfill my purpose.

[skaldssong]

What purpose would that have been? No, don't answer that. It's just... rare for someone to be able to know why they're here. Could you really say you didn't complete it?

[croibhristeoir]

...yes. Yes, I can clearly state that I wasn't able to do so.