And if I should fall...
I never dreamt it'd be this way
I've lost any chance for me to say
To say that I miss you
Say that I love you
Will someone please tell me I'm okay
Wherever you go I will be waiting
Whenever you call I will be there
Whatever it takes I'll make your darkest days so bright
I'm in your heart tonight
Dearest Individual,
You said we couldn't be together, I lived with that. You said you found someone else, I understood. But every time I try to move on, you're right there, blocking my path. Maybe you don't want me to be as happy as you are. But I believe you're not as injurious as I give you credit for. So please, all I need is for you to tell me if what you feel for me is real, or if it's just a game. If it's real, then let's do this, we'll figure it out. Together. But if it's not, then just let me go.
I admit, I've lost. I've lost every single game I've played against you. You won, I surrendered. But you've held me prisoner for far too long now. Free me of your hold because even though I choose you, I know you cannot make me happy because you choose her. Now, you alone have the power to keep breaking me and you alone have the power to keep the empty hole in my chest from tearing apart.
Love,
Nan