Its all very clear
You could pretty much read my October 8th post, two post ago realy, to understand how im feeling right now. For the exact same thing happened, from the exact same person, for the exact same reasons, only this time ive been asked to stay away from him (which considering we have hung out like 3 times probably at most in the last 3 months is pretty fucking rediculous, he hasnt tried to or made an effort to hang out, nor seem to care about any of his friends that have been there for him longer then a month, we are all worthless apparently). I get to loose my friends because of reidculous money issues, that are not even there fucking problem. Since when does starting a business not cost money? Since when is it solely my responsibility to run this business and pay for it, and be the one to blame when it hasnt made money yet. No one has spent nearly as much as I have, buy a large factor, and no one has done any work for it but me. To let stupid rediculous bullshit like this to affect friendships is rediculous. What hurts most, is like everyone else, everything was decided without even making an attempt to talk to me about any issues, i thought all this was resolved back when, but apparently not, its just been on the back burner. I have done nothing wrong, I have done nothing but things in the interest for him, the business, and everyone. I have made personal sacrificies of EVERYTHING, that no one seems to grasps, nothing has been for me, I have not benifited for anything, nothing has helped me or gone to me, I have done without because no one else seems to care about this business but me, so i have given everything i have to it, my health , my money, and time, ALL OF MY TIME, i have put it before school, before my health, before everything. How sad I am, and how sad it is that people seem to think it is right and ethically and morally right to do such things without even confronting or discussing the issues. To hear that the third party offered his voting rights in some sort of effort to remove me from things only added to the hurt. As if ive done anything to this business that was wrong but give everything I have to it and work my ass off to make it successful, do what, remove me? for what? So no one can work on it and try and make it successfull, I have spent nothing but personal money for over 4 months, the company was out of money in July, and it was out of money because of business expenses, that had bullshit to do with me, but did anyone care to fucking discuss, no. Who has paid the loan payment, ME. everysingle fucking time, me. The first payment came out of the loan, every single of the payments since then has came out of my personal fucking pocket. Why would you assume a business loan would just sit in an account and not be used, and then be upset because its not paid back within months of getting it? It is not my fault things are not moving as fast. The average business takes 2-5 years to be profitable and recoop its investment. I have paid 3x as much into the business and its expenses then that loan, and i am the only one that is suffering because of its finances, no one else. I am not mad, I am crying, crying over how selfish people are and how they are so quick to drop the only people that care about them, because of things that are not true and no effort was made to verify them. I have made so many changes in the last two months to show everyone how devoted I am to this company and how I am willing to give up everything in my life for it , and for my friends, and apparently that has only made the people im doing everything for have more of a dislike for me, it was all for fucking them, everything was, and they dont give a shit. Merry fucking christmass Jeff, you have had another friend lost to the Bradford/Bill/Mara/Fred/Whoever believes the bullshit and crap about my, what I do with my time,etc... crowd. All people I still like and would gladly be friends with if they wanted to. But they all believe horribly wrong things about me, odd considering I dont hang out with them, and they have no idea.
PS. I have not got high or done drugs for months you pricks, nothign that wasnt prescribed to me. And none of you have no idea what is going on with my health, if you did, you wouldnt dare think of me how you do. My body is literally shutting down. Im in and out of the emergency room, with severe pains, stomach bleeding, low blood and talks of transfusions, continually showing up medical problems. Ill be lucky to fucking live to be old. And none of it has anything to fucking do with what I consume, I eat healthy, Salads, Bread mostly, Soup, I dont drink, and I dont do drugs. I spent almost my entire life not doing anything so called "bad". I drank for the first time 2 years ago,and stopped really 6 months lately except very very rarely. I havent got rolled for 10 months pretty much, and dont do other drugs for a very long time, I take my vitamines and medications try and get rest ad do my best to be awake the rest of the time and get through school and build this company, but none of you would know that would you. Apparently every one thinks I sit around and fucking do OC and whatnot every day and just be high and do shit. Morons, Ive done OC a handful of time sin the last few months, and a few of them were in the ER and from my doctors, the other times were only minimal ammounts, to not get high, but to reduce the amt of pain I was in, which alot of the time it was either that or goto the ER cause it was severe, In a couple weeks my doctors start permenently prescribing medication to deal with my pain. Not everyone is interested in getting high, but apparently thats what everyone thinks I do. Why dont you ask or stop making assumptions and accusations, and further hurt and make my life more difficult, as if its not hard enough dealing with my health and how it affects my life, what you people are doing is equivalent to making fun of criple with chronic illness, because thats what I am, just because im not in a wheel chair or dont have cancer doesnt mean my equality of living isnt abot as bad as them. If you want to provide medical opinions, become a doctor, until then, leave it to the professionals.
PS. I have not got high or done drugs for months you pricks, nothign that wasnt prescribed to me. And none of you have no idea what is going on with my health, if you did, you wouldnt dare think of me how you do. My body is literally shutting down. Im in and out of the emergency room, with severe pains, stomach bleeding, low blood and talks of transfusions, continually showing up medical problems. Ill be lucky to fucking live to be old. And none of it has anything to fucking do with what I consume, I eat healthy, Salads, Bread mostly, Soup, I dont drink, and I dont do drugs. I spent almost my entire life not doing anything so called "bad". I drank for the first time 2 years ago,and stopped really 6 months lately except very very rarely. I havent got rolled for 10 months pretty much, and dont do other drugs for a very long time, I take my vitamines and medications try and get rest ad do my best to be awake the rest of the time and get through school and build this company, but none of you would know that would you. Apparently every one thinks I sit around and fucking do OC and whatnot every day and just be high and do shit. Morons, Ive done OC a handful of time sin the last few months, and a few of them were in the ER and from my doctors, the other times were only minimal ammounts, to not get high, but to reduce the amt of pain I was in, which alot of the time it was either that or goto the ER cause it was severe, In a couple weeks my doctors start permenently prescribing medication to deal with my pain. Not everyone is interested in getting high, but apparently thats what everyone thinks I do. Why dont you ask or stop making assumptions and accusations, and further hurt and make my life more difficult, as if its not hard enough dealing with my health and how it affects my life, what you people are doing is equivalent to making fun of criple with chronic illness, because thats what I am, just because im not in a wheel chair or dont have cancer doesnt mean my equality of living isnt abot as bad as them. If you want to provide medical opinions, become a doctor, until then, leave it to the professionals.