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Little update on me
I had another skin "surgery" this time on my leg, upper left thigh (minor minor, I was awake and it took a few minutes). I believe it’s four stitches? To have a spot taken out. I asked and she told me it’s not melanoma but it’s a level above dysplastic. Basically it was about to mutate into melanoma within the coming weeks. According to the pathologist it was extremely severe, but not cancer just yet. IDK how they determine this but at least we got it.
So yeah. My body is determined to give me cancer. Honestly I'm waiting for it to manage it. I was so close the first time. Then again, we also weren't watching everything like a hawk like we are now. So I dunno. Just go see the dermatologist every three months for the rest of my life and continue to have moles taken off and little surgeries till I'm smothered in scars? Ehhhhhefjknd
I finally see the rheumatologist on tuesday. Seeing as the two neurologists at the med school believe I have chronic pain syndrome, I'm hoping that'll narrow things down (it can be caused by auto immune diseases, and I haven't experienced any of the other causes) doctors and me at this point though. I'm worried I'll go in and he'll just shrug and go idk like everyone else has. I can't even keep up with my physical therapy anymore I'm in too much pain. It's just getting worse and worse and now I get bad vertigo and my vision is getting to a point where I don't know what I'm looking at sometimes. I'm CONSTANTLY dehydrated. I'm either freezing cold or blazing hot (but I dont shiver/get goosebumps nor do I sweat. I have the ability to do both cause if it's actually cold or hot, I shiver or I sweat but it's like I get these flashes and my body doesn't react, other being severely uncomfortable)
They tried to take my blood the other day and i got stuck EIGHT TIMES cause they couldn't get a vein they've become so narrow. and they never did get any blood. I have to go back soon to try again.
IN THE LESS DEPRESSING NEWS
I've been playing MASS EFFECT and it is FANTASTIC. I think I'm getting close to the end of the first game (or at the very least I'm past the half way point) and goooooosh I love it. No one spoil me for ANYTHING but I just adore it. I'm playing as a guy (Dave Shepard, he's a lovely black man with green eyes and fluffy black hair who acts like captain america in space) and Tali is my homegirl. I also really like Garrus. And Kaiden is growing on me.
Ashley pissed me the fuck off and is dead
SOMEDAY I will play sims again. Maybe.
I had another skin "surgery" this time on my leg, upper left thigh (minor minor, I was awake and it took a few minutes). I believe it’s four stitches? To have a spot taken out. I asked and she told me it’s not melanoma but it’s a level above dysplastic. Basically it was about to mutate into melanoma within the coming weeks. According to the pathologist it was extremely severe, but not cancer just yet. IDK how they determine this but at least we got it.
So yeah. My body is determined to give me cancer. Honestly I'm waiting for it to manage it. I was so close the first time. Then again, we also weren't watching everything like a hawk like we are now. So I dunno. Just go see the dermatologist every three months for the rest of my life and continue to have moles taken off and little surgeries till I'm smothered in scars? Ehhhhhefjknd
I finally see the rheumatologist on tuesday. Seeing as the two neurologists at the med school believe I have chronic pain syndrome, I'm hoping that'll narrow things down (it can be caused by auto immune diseases, and I haven't experienced any of the other causes) doctors and me at this point though. I'm worried I'll go in and he'll just shrug and go idk like everyone else has. I can't even keep up with my physical therapy anymore I'm in too much pain. It's just getting worse and worse and now I get bad vertigo and my vision is getting to a point where I don't know what I'm looking at sometimes. I'm CONSTANTLY dehydrated. I'm either freezing cold or blazing hot (but I dont shiver/get goosebumps nor do I sweat. I have the ability to do both cause if it's actually cold or hot, I shiver or I sweat but it's like I get these flashes and my body doesn't react, other being severely uncomfortable)
They tried to take my blood the other day and i got stuck EIGHT TIMES cause they couldn't get a vein they've become so narrow. and they never did get any blood. I have to go back soon to try again.
IN THE LESS DEPRESSING NEWS
I've been playing MASS EFFECT and it is FANTASTIC. I think I'm getting close to the end of the first game (or at the very least I'm past the half way point) and goooooosh I love it. No one spoil me for ANYTHING but I just adore it. I'm playing as a guy (Dave Shepard, he's a lovely black man with green eyes and fluffy black hair who acts like captain america in space) and Tali is my homegirl. I also really like Garrus. And Kaiden is growing on me.
Ashley pissed me the fuck off and is dead
SOMEDAY I will play sims again. Maybe.