lifes a bitch

[theundecided007]

life bites the big one sometimes dont it? You'll be thinkin' to yourself...wow what a great day and BAM! something comes back to bite you in the ass. My mom has 0% patience im dead serious. shes like pmisng 24/7 and tries to start an arguement with every single thing i freaking say. Im serious..for instance: I'll be asking "hey mom i need to...." she'll interupt me and be like "not right im REALLLY stressed out right now and i dont need you pestering me so shutup". and she'll be stressed for a REALLY stupid reason such as a friend hasnt called yet like they said they would even though it had only been 5 minutes past what they said. My mom is seriously a freak. She doesnt understand anything i say OR do. Like today i was sitting at the dinner table and i got up because i had finished and shes like "you need to start asking to be excused, its very rude not to" and im thinkin "wtf since when did this rule start?" so im like "mom seriously we dont need that rule, we dont need to be EXACTLY like the litte house on the prarie people" and i said that last part as a TOTAL joke and she shat bricks and told me to go to my room. so i did. whatever, its my room...i dont really care. So i opened my door but it wouldnt open for some reason, the doorknobs a little weird, so i had to like push it open and when i did the door slammed against the wall and my mom was like "thats it your grounded from the computer for today because u slammed your door"...UGGHHH. I cant take her anymore, im serious. I cant take her and her "lets act exactly like everyone else does at church so that "I" can fit in" attitude. Its really starting to piss me off seriously. newayz, besides that everythings just fine. Ive got more on my mind then over before about many things. im thinkin about relationships and how the next time around i wanna try and make it some i dont get hurt as badly as i did last time. anyone whose reading this entry most likely read the one from awhile back the day i got dumped. ya it was horrible. it was as if my heart was physically ripped out of my chest, thrown on the floor and stomped on a million times. it was pretty bad. im over that now for the most part. but im just thinkin, i want to work it out with someone so that wont happen, and i know if i got dumped again and i cared for them as much as i cared for the last one, my heart will be broken once again..but i wanna do something to ensure that we can still work out a friendship even afterwards.

-Neil
(The Voices Inside My Head Tell Me They Like You)

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cuz I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cuz sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you'd bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

-Goo Goo Dolls (Iris)