i miss noon.
so, yesterday i called adrian and said that i don't think we should date anymore. because dating him while i still love him and he is dating other people makes me feel like i'm not worthwhile, and it makes me sad. so. yeah. that's done. i was fine all day, until i was reading in a cafe and i felt a tear on my eyelashes. and then i left, and a homeless person asked me for money, and then when i said i didn't have any, they said that smiles were free (!). i guess i looked sad. that made me more sad, because, generally, i am always smiling and so no one needs to say that. oh well. then i came home, and maintained for about half an hour before crying alone in my room for another half an hour. then physics lab! woo!
today i feel substantially less like crying, which is nice. but i do have a test tomorrow. and not a lot of motivation. it's actually over. sad day. time to study.
today i feel substantially less like crying, which is nice. but i do have a test tomorrow. and not a lot of motivation. it's actually over. sad day. time to study.