this is for jamie, my favorite future teacher of the year!
let's write this in form
of a flowering haiku;
a series of these:
ot eight has begun
sobriety at midnight,
in sea of drunkards
carousel and pier
with dear michael; bread and
a male new years kiss.
straight hair and red tights
for a date with ex-boyfriend:
good sushi and sex.
conference table.
view of seattle is nice.
and eraserhead
is terrifying.
sleep next to people you love
who don't love you back.
strange repressing love;
emotions in compartments
stop progressing hurt.
running into friends
like jamie on the strizeet
brings cupcakes and love.
lavender frosting...
i feel optimistic:
sweet but distinctive.
running into friends
like justin on the strizeet
brings just frustration.
seems nice but is not
as evidenced by past acts;
stop hitting on me!
bondage show with house
rope dresses and suspensions,
was interesting.
40 year old man,
tobacco breath permeating;
gross. don't try to touch.
knots were more neat though.
useful for climbing; tying
can be sexy too.
first day of classes.
genome is ridonkulous
1.7.08
first day of lab work.
paraffin, mouse hearts, slides, stains;
should be really neat.
switched from genome to
plant physiology, yay!
planted sunflowers!
hot date with lucy
fancy italian pink door.
antipasto...mmmm.
feeling good about
classes. and even physics!
unexpected boon.
rock climbed with darin
only five eights the whole time
which was wonderful.
thai for lunch with chris,
the company and noodles
both stirred my cocoa.
a new bicycle!
cheap! competent! delicious!
so stoked for ridin'!
annnnddd, end.
hooray haikus! i am eating a giant candy cake from lucy. she is wonderful. also, i am wearing a robe. hooray naked time!
also, i want to date someone else. for that self-esteem thing. my male friends are more chivalrous and we weren't even dating. still maybe in love with adrian. unfortunate. trying to stop. know he cares, but mostly feel like just a body to him, and one that he takes for granted at that. can't say that i've shown him any different though. i think mostly i've shown him that no matter what shitty stuff he does, i will still like him, and come back. and that's bad. some other boys i'm interested in who maybe are interested in me, who may work out. shall see. want monogamy and reciprocated love so badly. but feel like will destroy them emotionally, because i feel like of destroyed emotionally. f minus minus. wish i were better at games...or really just having fun with people and not getting entangled. but i'm not. who knows.
need to study. been listening to too much kimya dawson, in a good way. lots of cafe time with alix and kellen. and 2 classes with kellen! yeah! everything is great, except for sorting out emotion stuff. so, i can't complain.
of a flowering haiku;
a series of these:
ot eight has begun
sobriety at midnight,
in sea of drunkards
carousel and pier
with dear michael; bread and
a male new years kiss.
straight hair and red tights
for a date with ex-boyfriend:
good sushi and sex.
conference table.
view of seattle is nice.
and eraserhead
is terrifying.
sleep next to people you love
who don't love you back.
strange repressing love;
emotions in compartments
stop progressing hurt.
running into friends
like jamie on the strizeet
brings cupcakes and love.
lavender frosting...
i feel optimistic:
sweet but distinctive.
running into friends
like justin on the strizeet
brings just frustration.
seems nice but is not
as evidenced by past acts;
stop hitting on me!
bondage show with house
rope dresses and suspensions,
was interesting.
40 year old man,
tobacco breath permeating;
gross. don't try to touch.
knots were more neat though.
useful for climbing; tying
can be sexy too.
first day of classes.
genome is ridonkulous
1.7.08
first day of lab work.
paraffin, mouse hearts, slides, stains;
should be really neat.
switched from genome to
plant physiology, yay!
planted sunflowers!
hot date with lucy
fancy italian pink door.
antipasto...mmmm.
feeling good about
classes. and even physics!
unexpected boon.
rock climbed with darin
only five eights the whole time
which was wonderful.
thai for lunch with chris,
the company and noodles
both stirred my cocoa.
a new bicycle!
cheap! competent! delicious!
so stoked for ridin'!
annnnddd, end.
hooray haikus! i am eating a giant candy cake from lucy. she is wonderful. also, i am wearing a robe. hooray naked time!
also, i want to date someone else. for that self-esteem thing. my male friends are more chivalrous and we weren't even dating. still maybe in love with adrian. unfortunate. trying to stop. know he cares, but mostly feel like just a body to him, and one that he takes for granted at that. can't say that i've shown him any different though. i think mostly i've shown him that no matter what shitty stuff he does, i will still like him, and come back. and that's bad. some other boys i'm interested in who maybe are interested in me, who may work out. shall see. want monogamy and reciprocated love so badly. but feel like will destroy them emotionally, because i feel like of destroyed emotionally. f minus minus. wish i were better at games...or really just having fun with people and not getting entangled. but i'm not. who knows.
need to study. been listening to too much kimya dawson, in a good way. lots of cafe time with alix and kellen. and 2 classes with kellen! yeah! everything is great, except for sorting out emotion stuff. so, i can't complain.