I am so embarrassed
...because my cell just went off in my class and the prof asked me to leave- woops. I meant to turn it to silent and totally forgot.....
Anyways...
Today I'm at school all day and then I work. Bah. I'm gonna go to the gym between classes and run another 5 miles. I think I might try and do the thanksgiving half marathon if I can work myself up to more than 5 miles by then. It probably won't happen, but at least I'll try and run more than 5 miles- I'm definitely going to do the River Run in the spring. I'm also going to start lifting weights today- just my arms and chest though.
This weekend was interesting. I stayed in most of the week- although I went to the Art Walk Wed. with Jason, Ryan, and Loretta- Loretta and I ended up going to Park Place drunk and demanding drinks from old men. The bartender, Ken, who always serves us tried to kiss me. No thank ya.
Friday a bunch of us went to Crush for dinner, then John and I made rounds through Park Place and Metro (both of which were boring- there were a LOT of old men at PP) before heading to my house where everyone came over and we drank lots and danced some. I woke up the next morning feeling like total crap.
Saturday I'd told wes I'd pay him for the cell bill so I went and did that after work. Then I was going to meet up with everyone at Wall St. but apparently there'd been some scene and they were driving someone home. I decided to go by myself to Park Place for a drink as I didn't feel like sitting at home. I saw Lisa Nehry and the cute little boy who works for her. He and I talked for a bit, but he's not my type. Young and pretty, but not in school or anything- I guess I coulda brought him home with me, but I was not in a one-night-stand kind of mood. I saw Carson and talked with him for a while, and then we decided to head to Metro. I never ended up meeting back up with him but I saw a friend of Lee Hamby's and talked to him, saw this guy paige who lives in orlando now hanging out with 376921487 hot girls, all of whom he was somehow related to. He is still with his boyfriend, which kind of suprised me. I also saw Mike Renehan who has a boyfriend and lives in New Orleans with him. Well he lived there for 9 days before Katrina hit and he and the bf have been in Jax since. He's going back later this week. Good for him. I saw a few other people I know- one loud girl who I see out at Eclipse every so often with this guy named Ivan who kept complimenting me, but once again- not really my type. I saw this older guy, stuart, shitfaced trying to work the ATM and failing miserably, so I helped him and, being broke, demanded he buy me drinks for doing so. He said that if he did I had to have sex with him. I laughed and said 'ok'. He bought me a drink and then I pushed him off on a guy in the drag bar. After I finished my drink I went home. There were lots of cute guys out, but I feel like I've totally lost my game. I hardly know how I'd even go about approaching someone to say hi. I hate that stupid getting-to-know-you bullshit chit chat, but mostly I'm just afraid they'd be nasty to me or something. Totally stupid and baseless I know, but I guess my self-esteem is still pretty shot-to-shit. Idonno- I'm going to go again this saturday, but I know John and everyone else hate it there and when I bring Jason they automatically assume we're dating, not to mention that he doesn't like going really, so I have no idea who I'll go with. Maybe Mia and Harmony, but even then I just sort of wander around while they dance. I wish I felt like I had more in common with gay men, or knew more about what to chit chat about. I just feel awkward out usually, and compensate for that with too much booze. Oh silly me.
I have to run to class now. I will remember to put my cell on silent.
Anyways...
Today I'm at school all day and then I work. Bah. I'm gonna go to the gym between classes and run another 5 miles. I think I might try and do the thanksgiving half marathon if I can work myself up to more than 5 miles by then. It probably won't happen, but at least I'll try and run more than 5 miles- I'm definitely going to do the River Run in the spring. I'm also going to start lifting weights today- just my arms and chest though.
This weekend was interesting. I stayed in most of the week- although I went to the Art Walk Wed. with Jason, Ryan, and Loretta- Loretta and I ended up going to Park Place drunk and demanding drinks from old men. The bartender, Ken, who always serves us tried to kiss me. No thank ya.
Friday a bunch of us went to Crush for dinner, then John and I made rounds through Park Place and Metro (both of which were boring- there were a LOT of old men at PP) before heading to my house where everyone came over and we drank lots and danced some. I woke up the next morning feeling like total crap.
Saturday I'd told wes I'd pay him for the cell bill so I went and did that after work. Then I was going to meet up with everyone at Wall St. but apparently there'd been some scene and they were driving someone home. I decided to go by myself to Park Place for a drink as I didn't feel like sitting at home. I saw Lisa Nehry and the cute little boy who works for her. He and I talked for a bit, but he's not my type. Young and pretty, but not in school or anything- I guess I coulda brought him home with me, but I was not in a one-night-stand kind of mood. I saw Carson and talked with him for a while, and then we decided to head to Metro. I never ended up meeting back up with him but I saw a friend of Lee Hamby's and talked to him, saw this guy paige who lives in orlando now hanging out with 376921487 hot girls, all of whom he was somehow related to. He is still with his boyfriend, which kind of suprised me. I also saw Mike Renehan who has a boyfriend and lives in New Orleans with him. Well he lived there for 9 days before Katrina hit and he and the bf have been in Jax since. He's going back later this week. Good for him. I saw a few other people I know- one loud girl who I see out at Eclipse every so often with this guy named Ivan who kept complimenting me, but once again- not really my type. I saw this older guy, stuart, shitfaced trying to work the ATM and failing miserably, so I helped him and, being broke, demanded he buy me drinks for doing so. He said that if he did I had to have sex with him. I laughed and said 'ok'. He bought me a drink and then I pushed him off on a guy in the drag bar. After I finished my drink I went home. There were lots of cute guys out, but I feel like I've totally lost my game. I hardly know how I'd even go about approaching someone to say hi. I hate that stupid getting-to-know-you bullshit chit chat, but mostly I'm just afraid they'd be nasty to me or something. Totally stupid and baseless I know, but I guess my self-esteem is still pretty shot-to-shit. Idonno- I'm going to go again this saturday, but I know John and everyone else hate it there and when I bring Jason they automatically assume we're dating, not to mention that he doesn't like going really, so I have no idea who I'll go with. Maybe Mia and Harmony, but even then I just sort of wander around while they dance. I wish I felt like I had more in common with gay men, or knew more about what to chit chat about. I just feel awkward out usually, and compensate for that with too much booze. Oh silly me.
I have to run to class now. I will remember to put my cell on silent.