Wonderful Weekend
I got to see Aimee and celebrate her birthday with her and relax with Jozef. It was good to see Nancy, Zachary, and Miles again too. Aimee's friends are cool. I've been feeling a little less depressed lately ... it looks like I'll be able to stay in Chicago for about half of the summer (around my mom's surgery). I feel like I should be happier ... I don't know. I guess I'm working on things still, but I feel like I've improved. I think I've only had one or two panic attacks this semester. Jozef is seriously the best man ever to put up with me ... I can't wait until we live together. He helps calm me down so I can think straight.
And the thing is, I don't really see him as "just" a boyfriend or a lover... it's more like I see him as an extension of myself. I can feel it when he's sad or when he's happy and I only feel complete when I'm around him. When I stay at his house he wakes me with kisses and flowers. He places flowers in my hair... I've no idea where I would be without him.
1 more week of class then finals week.
And for the first time in a while I feel as though my life consists of more than just school. I feel like I may have something much bigger to look forward to.
And the thing is, I don't really see him as "just" a boyfriend or a lover... it's more like I see him as an extension of myself. I can feel it when he's sad or when he's happy and I only feel complete when I'm around him. When I stay at his house he wakes me with kisses and flowers. He places flowers in my hair... I've no idea where I would be without him.
1 more week of class then finals week.
And for the first time in a while I feel as though my life consists of more than just school. I feel like I may have something much bigger to look forward to.