Looking Onward
3 more weeks... of school, but my mind is elsewhere.
I would like to marry Jozef. I know right now the timing isn't right, but I'm itching to be engaged to him and announce it to the world. Him and I are mature enough, we've practically lived together already and we learn from each other.
When I graduate and save up enough money Jozef and I will move south where the winters aren't as harsh and I'll be able to swim in the ocean whenever I want to. That alone will lift my spirits. Don't tell me it'll get old, because if you know me-- you'd know that it won't get old. I love water. And I know moving away won't solve all my issues, but it symbolizes my starting over and leaving toxic places and people behind me (though, of course, not everyone I met in IL will I sever ties with). But I'll be starting over and finally doing something for me and not caring what anyone else thinks. It symbolizes better days and a new life.
Photo credit: My lover-- Jozef.
I would like to marry Jozef. I know right now the timing isn't right, but I'm itching to be engaged to him and announce it to the world. Him and I are mature enough, we've practically lived together already and we learn from each other.
When I graduate and save up enough money Jozef and I will move south where the winters aren't as harsh and I'll be able to swim in the ocean whenever I want to. That alone will lift my spirits. Don't tell me it'll get old, because if you know me-- you'd know that it won't get old. I love water. And I know moving away won't solve all my issues, but it symbolizes my starting over and leaving toxic places and people behind me (though, of course, not everyone I met in IL will I sever ties with). But I'll be starting over and finally doing something for me and not caring what anyone else thinks. It symbolizes better days and a new life.
Photo credit: My lover-- Jozef.