about staying with the parents
I'm now been here for a few years again and it has made the time funny because the first half of the time I was traveling around the country with impunity. The second half I have been constantly sick now moneyless and beyond repair. I now have no car and with the frustrations of full time work calling and me sick I cannot comply. I think the reason that things lined up is because I'm sick. At the weakest time in my life where I cannot even feed myself some days because I am so weak. I have lost a lot of dignity the dignity of privacy or thought or anything I just feel bad for myself and feel bad in general and I have placed a heavy psychological burden on my parents especially with my mom. I think she feels guilty about the things she did with my child hood but honestly there have been worse things in my life racism bigotry .