Trying to be better.
Look. I don't know why I need attention. I don't know why I want to see you every day or every other day. Rigt now, I want to ignore you and just pretend that I don't even care. I don't know why I care. I can't help your scheual or mine. This whole thing just sucks.
You stopped looking at this, by the way, so I stopped telling you about it.
I guess that's why I care. Because I'm afriad that you've stopped caring. I get it, people get excited when they get into relationships. You were just excited to have a girlfriend. You said "I've treated you like I would treat a girlfriend" I thought this was how it was going to be, I suppose. It was like that for awhile. I'm just trying not to be attatched, which makes it worse. Because I can't change my needs, just how I behave. It's been a bad week.
I'm sorry I have any exectations at all. I really am.
Sometimes I think that I need to be with you when I feel insecure, when I want reassurance, or when I just feel badly about myself or my day. So maybe I need to fix that.
I could easily break up with you and get to the bottom of this. Just to be alone for a while, with no boyfriend to rely on emotionally. Maybe I shoul consider that. That would really suck. I definately got myself in deep this time, huh? Because if we separated, we would still work together. And neither of us wants to lose our job. I'm sorry I sucked you into my world of problems.
I just have to be better.
I can't always be my best, but I can try.
Anyway. I'll just be better.
You stopped looking at this, by the way, so I stopped telling you about it.
I guess that's why I care. Because I'm afriad that you've stopped caring. I get it, people get excited when they get into relationships. You were just excited to have a girlfriend. You said "I've treated you like I would treat a girlfriend" I thought this was how it was going to be, I suppose. It was like that for awhile. I'm just trying not to be attatched, which makes it worse. Because I can't change my needs, just how I behave. It's been a bad week.
I'm sorry I have any exectations at all. I really am.
Sometimes I think that I need to be with you when I feel insecure, when I want reassurance, or when I just feel badly about myself or my day. So maybe I need to fix that.
I could easily break up with you and get to the bottom of this. Just to be alone for a while, with no boyfriend to rely on emotionally. Maybe I shoul consider that. That would really suck. I definately got myself in deep this time, huh? Because if we separated, we would still work together. And neither of us wants to lose our job. I'm sorry I sucked you into my world of problems.
I just have to be better.
I can't always be my best, but I can try.
Anyway. I'll just be better.