I was laying in bed running over some things that I've been thinking about for the last little while, and truthfully, it's so much better to rip off the band-aid quickly.
Which means that it's come to the point where I unfortunately need to bow out of Tides. I could make up a million excuses, but the long and short of it is that I've been gradually losing my steam over the months, to the point where I feel I've lost the voices of all of my characters. On top of being in another game, and having school going on, even though I'm done my first term, things piled up and well, shit happens, you know?
Estelle will be heading back to Erealia, much like Larsa did, but she'll be sending a long letter to Flynn telling him to take care, to write to her sometime (because she'll certainly be writing), and to come visit if he can. Paine will be heading somewhere, not sure where, but before she leaves, she'll be knocking on Rikku's door so she can thank her (RELUCTANTLY) and say goodbye -- also to keep in touch if she can/wants to.
As for Shinji and Yuuko, because they have the most CR, I left them open-ended. Of course they'll be leaving their ships, and Yuuko will likely be heading back to Bellcius, but I don't want to step on any toes. No matter what anyone says, Yuuko's going, and she'll be leaving an open invitation for Watanuki to follow should he wish to.
But for Shinji... Jim, Amber, Krys -- what do you think should happen? If he decided to leave, what would Anthy and Hiyori say/do?
With that out there... I'd like to take this opportunity to thank everyone for putting up with my crap activity and slowness. With my lewd comments and uncalled for comments and anything that's ever come out of my mouth. Over the years, I've made some bad judgement calls, and I've lost the respect of some people, but I feel like the friends I did end up keeping were the ones worth holding onto.
These last two years have been so much fun. Which seems like such a generic, boring word, but it was fun. As my first foray into panfandom, TST became like a homebase for me when I couldn't cope with stress. It's also the only panfandom game I've stayed in for over a year. The game had its ups and downs, and we've all been through a lot, so I'm really sad that I can't stay until endgame, but I know you guys will come up with something brilliant for the end.
I've come a long way from the end of 08 until now, and I almost feel like a douche for bailing when we're so close. Realistically speaking, though, I wouldn't be able to last until March. And it wouldn't be fair to keep these characters without doing anything with them. Thank you to everyone I ever wrote with, talked with, spammed with, confided in -- players, mods, everyone. This has been one fucking A+ train ride, even with all the bumps and scratches. I'll cherish all the memories, and leave with you a piece of my heart, because I consider Tides the best game I've ever been in. In terms of everything.
Basically, I suck, but I love you guys, and I'd single you out one by one and tell you how much I adore you except that would take an eternity. I love you truly, madly, and deeply, The Sky Tides, and I'll genuinely miss being here.
I'm still going to be at
tealantern, and still on AIM, so it's not like I'm disappearing. Just hanging up my boa so I can watch from the sidelines. Therefore, please friend remove pharaohking, divinated, seraphicure, and instantrecoil. ilu kiddos.
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