Feeling a lot better
At first, the randitine was giving me unsettling stomach cramps and actually making me more nauseous, so I took it only every other day until my system got used to it. Then I began taking it twice a day as is the right dosage, and I was only unsettled a little for a few hours on the first day (which was...hmm...I think last Thursday or Friday). I've been able to eat--no, actually look forward to eating, and walking about and going to bed feeling completely normal with a happy non-nauseous and non-crampy stomach.
The Paxil, while cutting off irrational, recurring thoughts completely, hasn't quite calmed my social anxiety. It's truly starting to, but not fast enough. This anxiety problem has been debilitating for all my life, so I guess it's going to take a little while to overcome that (and possibly a higher dosage of Paxil, even though I do not want to go there).
My belly is a lot flatter. My rib peaks and my abs are showing again, as bloating has completely ceased. It's still not completely flat, but I'm trying my best to get it there. I doubt I'll ever have a bikini-worthy tummy but that's okay. I'm getting a lot more comfortable with the way I am. At least my annoying lovehandles are officially gone for good!! Yoplait Digestive Health yogurt has helped with killing the bloating (though so has the Randitine, because the ulcer was making me pretty bloated and heavy too).
Scary thing is, I was looking at some health websites and I was showing every sign of a really bad ulcer in my duodenum. I had just about every sign, even the cold chills and that feeling of heaviness within, and throwing up food from hours/days before. I'm glad I finally went to the doctor when I did o_o
I don't know what I would've done during this entire mess without Trevor. On some of my worst nights during these two months, talking to him and thinking about him and my near future were what pulled back into calmness when I was so weak and ripped up from nausea, pain, and everything else.
I'm even getting over my phobia of swallowing pills, if I haven't mentioned that already. Raising my confidence little by little. There's so many things that are not understandable about me unless one has gone through something similar...I'm so glad I had that talk with Donna (Myssie on Active Worlds) last night...
Dude, I don't think they're actually paying me for helping with the food at the auction. I was supposed to be getting $5 more an auction, but I haven't seen it yet. We'll see what tomorrow's paycheck brings, eh? >:O
Guess I'll post this now huh :O
The Paxil, while cutting off irrational, recurring thoughts completely, hasn't quite calmed my social anxiety. It's truly starting to, but not fast enough. This anxiety problem has been debilitating for all my life, so I guess it's going to take a little while to overcome that (and possibly a higher dosage of Paxil, even though I do not want to go there).
My belly is a lot flatter. My rib peaks and my abs are showing again, as bloating has completely ceased. It's still not completely flat, but I'm trying my best to get it there. I doubt I'll ever have a bikini-worthy tummy but that's okay. I'm getting a lot more comfortable with the way I am. At least my annoying lovehandles are officially gone for good!! Yoplait Digestive Health yogurt has helped with killing the bloating (though so has the Randitine, because the ulcer was making me pretty bloated and heavy too).
Scary thing is, I was looking at some health websites and I was showing every sign of a really bad ulcer in my duodenum. I had just about every sign, even the cold chills and that feeling of heaviness within, and throwing up food from hours/days before. I'm glad I finally went to the doctor when I did o_o
I don't know what I would've done during this entire mess without Trevor. On some of my worst nights during these two months, talking to him and thinking about him and my near future were what pulled back into calmness when I was so weak and ripped up from nausea, pain, and everything else.
I'm even getting over my phobia of swallowing pills, if I haven't mentioned that already. Raising my confidence little by little. There's so many things that are not understandable about me unless one has gone through something similar...I'm so glad I had that talk with Donna (Myssie on Active Worlds) last night...
Dude, I don't think they're actually paying me for helping with the food at the auction. I was supposed to be getting $5 more an auction, but I haven't seen it yet. We'll see what tomorrow's paycheck brings, eh? >:O
Guess I'll post this now huh :O