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[theshallowkiss]

I am tired.
I went to bed at like 3 last night.
I wrote the perfect poem 5 minutes ago, and then myspace deleted it.
And I can't get it back.
Maybe that's a sign to stop writing about him.

"I haven't forgot about you. If I had, I wouldn't have called you."

So he's off to Leo for awhile.
Probably for some drug shit.
And why am I not suprised.
I'm worried about him, I really am.

Last night I was up till three.
With a pounding head ache, aching legs, my stomach was hurting.
And my throat was sore.
And so I go downstairs with my mom and try to go to sleep on the floor.
I started crying like really bad.
I was in so much pain.
And then all of a sudden my arms started to ache like in the same spot on both arms.
It was so weird.
So finally I get up and go to my room after taking some sleeping pills.
And I start crying again.
But then when I thought about it, I wasn't crying because I was in pain.
I was crying because the only person I wanted there with me, wasn't there...

I feel so helpless in this world.
I really do.