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so next thursday is december. and a month from thursday is next year. weird? i know. today was terribly ordinary. i guess you need these uneventful ones to make the spectacular ones, well, spectacular. steph's friend, michelle, decided she wasn't going to throw her a birthday party anymore. who does that? so i figure, since i like planning and stuff, why not, right? i think i'm the type that likes stress to keep things interesting. and from what i've learned in psych, that is not very healthy for you. neither is ChickFilA. but at least i got to hang out with Eddie a bit while eating my ChickFilA sandwich kids meal. betcha didn't know we had those did ya? anyway, we were talking about how we used to really dislike eachother because i thought he was a creep, and he knew it. but he's become a great guy, and a good match for my best friend.
i've had the toughest time focusing on what i need to be. i kinda just want to do my own thing, and ignore the things that matter the absolute most. it's hard to stand, when your ankles are weak, and then there goes my knees every other day at school. there's tension once again between me and mom. for the same reasons it's always been. and ellie didn't come home from school again. it's hard not to be bitter in these situations when i see half of my friends'parents with good families. and freakin parents with authority. the sooner i leave, the sooner i can be looking forward to one of my own. lyndsay's making me a mix cd with a bunch of good songs. and in fifteen minutes i will leave, pick up sam, and have a good time at summer's. life group is becoming my family, in a cool but unexpected way.
i've had the toughest time focusing on what i need to be. i kinda just want to do my own thing, and ignore the things that matter the absolute most. it's hard to stand, when your ankles are weak, and then there goes my knees every other day at school. there's tension once again between me and mom. for the same reasons it's always been. and ellie didn't come home from school again. it's hard not to be bitter in these situations when i see half of my friends'parents with good families. and freakin parents with authority. the sooner i leave, the sooner i can be looking forward to one of my own. lyndsay's making me a mix cd with a bunch of good songs. and in fifteen minutes i will leave, pick up sam, and have a good time at summer's. life group is becoming my family, in a cool but unexpected way.