[multichapter] Baby Blue: Part 4: Chapter 21
Title: Baby Blue: Part 4: Chapter 21
Pairing: JunDa
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 1155
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction, and only the words are mine.
Summary: All they wanted was each other, just to be together the way they once were. But now that they have it, is that still enough?
15th February 2014
He waited until 9am to call his manager, he didn't want to worry his mother with it and he couldn't face calling one of the other members, he couldn't take the questions from them, explaining why he was cold and alone the day after Valentine's Day.
It seemed someone had gotten there first though, his manager flapped about, almost screaming about how worried everyone had been not knowing where he was and what they were going to say when it got out about his accident. He just assured her he was fine, he'd been driving tired, thought he saw something in the road and lost control of the car, that was all, and he was fine.
She must have believed him if the lecture he got almost two hours later when she picked him up from the hospital was anything to go by. He ignored her the best he could, staring off out of the window, trying to empty his mind of anything might trigger another breakdown.
He just wanted to be alone, to bury himself away from the rest of the world, but still, once they arrived at his apartment, she insisted on walking him up.
What he found when he arrived was even worse, all four of his bandmates stood up as he entered, Koki and Kame both rushing at him to hug him and tell him how worried they'd been. Maru was further back, his face relieved but his arm was clutching the last of their group to him, comforting him.
Taguchi turned away, he didn't even want to see that face, couldn't, he could feel the tears already burning the backs of his eyes.
With a few more words of warning, his manager took her leave, but there were still far too many people crowding him, and without the safety of her ignorance he'd be left with only them and the truth.
“Junno, we were so fucking worried, you're a fucking asshole, what happened?” Koki asked, his hands gripping just a little too firmly to his bruised arm.
“It was an accident.” he insisted, shaking his head, “I just need to get some rest.”
“We know...” Maru said slowly, and Ueda's eyes dropped to the floor in shame. “We know everything, about the baby, and about Ueda breaking...”
“Shut up.” he shouted, startling even himself. “Please, don't ok? Just...I can't right now...”
“Junno, we're not accusing you, or blaming you for anything...” Koki started, leading him over to the sofa where he sat himself down subconsciously.
“We understand” Kame added, moving to crouch on the floor in front of him. “We're not blaming you for what happened with Mayuko-san, it was an accident and we understand how hard it must have been, going through all that, but you could have talked to us about it, you shouldn't have had to deal with that alone...”
No, he shouldn't, he thought. His boyfriend, ex-boyfriend, should have been there for him, he should have understood and supported him regardless of how jealous or angry it made him.
“Junno...” it was Ueda's voice next, cracked and broken from tears and it made him feel sick. “Junno, I'm so, so, so...” another crack, a sniff “so, sorry...I don't want to fight with you any more. Can't...” another sickening sob “Can't we just forget it all...I love you.”
“Get out.” he replied, his voice cold but worn out. “I can't do this right now...”
He chanced a glance up to Ueda's face to find his expression shocked and lost, it tugged a little at the inside of his chest but there was just far too much, too many other words and arguments and curses running around in his head.
“But Junno...” Ueda cried, his tears unrestrained and he moved to drop to the floor in front of him. “Junno I was an idiot...we can't...please...”
“Just go.” he pushed, pulling his hand away from where Ueda was trying to grip it on his knee.
“No.” Ueda continued to cry, shaking his head furiously. “I won't leave until you tell me there's still a chance for us.”
“I don't know” he shouted, his head pounding and his eyes burning again.
“Pomu.” Koki intervened, tugging Ueda up by the arm. “Give him some space to work through this OK? You haven't exactly been helpful the past few weeks.”
It's what he'd been feeling inside, but to hear it from somebody else felt like a slap in the face, still he was in no state to defend the other man, he just needed some time to figure things out.
“I know...” Ueda said, barely above a whisper.
“Then go.” Koki pushed gently. “Maru, could you take him home?
Taguchi turned away as the oldest member all but dragged Ueda from the room. There was silence until the click of the door shutting behind them echoed through the apartment.
“Junno...” Kame asked gently. “Junno, what really happened?”
He looked at them both a little bewildered until Koki elaborated. “Come on Junno, you and Ueda have this huge fight and then you accidentally crash your car? We're not going to have a go at you or lecture you, we just want to help you...”
“It was an accident. I wasn't tryng to kill myself. I was just angry and upset...I was driving too fast and I just...I just lost control of the car...”
“Honestly?” Kame asked.
“I promise” Taguchi assured him, mostly truthfully. He didn't want to elaborate on his little break down for fear they'd think he was unstable and insist on staying with him. “Really...I'm just tired...I didn't sleep much.”
“How did you get to the hospital?” Koki asked next.
“I walked, I was a little dazed right after, concussed they think, I didn't even think about calling anyone, I didn't take anything out of the car with me and I just kept walking in the direction of the street lights until I found a hospital...”
Koki nodded. “And what did the doctors say?”
“I'm fine...sprained wrist” he said, indicating his bandaged wrist. “Probably concussion, but I'm ok to sleep now, and whiplash. They told the manager I should take a few days off, but I think I'll be fine once I sleep.”
Koki and Kame exchanged a meaningful look. “I have work.” Kame announced. “Koki is free for a couple of hours, he'll stay with you for now, just in case you need anything.”
“I don't need...” he started, but he was cut off by Koki.
“I don't care. I'm staying so get used to it. I'll run you a bath and then you can sleep all right?”
He heaved a sigh and nodded, defeated. “Thank you.”
Kame stood to leave and rubbed Taguchi's shoulder “Take care all right? And I know it's hard but...maybe when you feel up to it, you could give Ueda a call. He feels really bad about how he's been with you.”
Chapter 20 | Chapter 22
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What?! You didn't really think I would kill him off? Nah, I just wanted to scare you guys >_< he's fine. Last chapter for the section should be up next week :D
Pairing: JunDa
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 1155
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction, and only the words are mine.
Summary: All they wanted was each other, just to be together the way they once were. But now that they have it, is that still enough?
15th February 2014
He waited until 9am to call his manager, he didn't want to worry his mother with it and he couldn't face calling one of the other members, he couldn't take the questions from them, explaining why he was cold and alone the day after Valentine's Day.
It seemed someone had gotten there first though, his manager flapped about, almost screaming about how worried everyone had been not knowing where he was and what they were going to say when it got out about his accident. He just assured her he was fine, he'd been driving tired, thought he saw something in the road and lost control of the car, that was all, and he was fine.
She must have believed him if the lecture he got almost two hours later when she picked him up from the hospital was anything to go by. He ignored her the best he could, staring off out of the window, trying to empty his mind of anything might trigger another breakdown.
He just wanted to be alone, to bury himself away from the rest of the world, but still, once they arrived at his apartment, she insisted on walking him up.
What he found when he arrived was even worse, all four of his bandmates stood up as he entered, Koki and Kame both rushing at him to hug him and tell him how worried they'd been. Maru was further back, his face relieved but his arm was clutching the last of their group to him, comforting him.
Taguchi turned away, he didn't even want to see that face, couldn't, he could feel the tears already burning the backs of his eyes.
With a few more words of warning, his manager took her leave, but there were still far too many people crowding him, and without the safety of her ignorance he'd be left with only them and the truth.
“Junno, we were so fucking worried, you're a fucking asshole, what happened?” Koki asked, his hands gripping just a little too firmly to his bruised arm.
“It was an accident.” he insisted, shaking his head, “I just need to get some rest.”
“We know...” Maru said slowly, and Ueda's eyes dropped to the floor in shame. “We know everything, about the baby, and about Ueda breaking...”
“Shut up.” he shouted, startling even himself. “Please, don't ok? Just...I can't right now...”
“Junno, we're not accusing you, or blaming you for anything...” Koki started, leading him over to the sofa where he sat himself down subconsciously.
“We understand” Kame added, moving to crouch on the floor in front of him. “We're not blaming you for what happened with Mayuko-san, it was an accident and we understand how hard it must have been, going through all that, but you could have talked to us about it, you shouldn't have had to deal with that alone...”
No, he shouldn't, he thought. His boyfriend, ex-boyfriend, should have been there for him, he should have understood and supported him regardless of how jealous or angry it made him.
“Junno...” it was Ueda's voice next, cracked and broken from tears and it made him feel sick. “Junno, I'm so, so, so...” another crack, a sniff “so, sorry...I don't want to fight with you any more. Can't...” another sickening sob “Can't we just forget it all...I love you.”
“Get out.” he replied, his voice cold but worn out. “I can't do this right now...”
He chanced a glance up to Ueda's face to find his expression shocked and lost, it tugged a little at the inside of his chest but there was just far too much, too many other words and arguments and curses running around in his head.
“But Junno...” Ueda cried, his tears unrestrained and he moved to drop to the floor in front of him. “Junno I was an idiot...we can't...please...”
“Just go.” he pushed, pulling his hand away from where Ueda was trying to grip it on his knee.
“No.” Ueda continued to cry, shaking his head furiously. “I won't leave until you tell me there's still a chance for us.”
“I don't know” he shouted, his head pounding and his eyes burning again.
“Pomu.” Koki intervened, tugging Ueda up by the arm. “Give him some space to work through this OK? You haven't exactly been helpful the past few weeks.”
It's what he'd been feeling inside, but to hear it from somebody else felt like a slap in the face, still he was in no state to defend the other man, he just needed some time to figure things out.
“I know...” Ueda said, barely above a whisper.
“Then go.” Koki pushed gently. “Maru, could you take him home?
Taguchi turned away as the oldest member all but dragged Ueda from the room. There was silence until the click of the door shutting behind them echoed through the apartment.
“Junno...” Kame asked gently. “Junno, what really happened?”
He looked at them both a little bewildered until Koki elaborated. “Come on Junno, you and Ueda have this huge fight and then you accidentally crash your car? We're not going to have a go at you or lecture you, we just want to help you...”
“It was an accident. I wasn't tryng to kill myself. I was just angry and upset...I was driving too fast and I just...I just lost control of the car...”
“Honestly?” Kame asked.
“I promise” Taguchi assured him, mostly truthfully. He didn't want to elaborate on his little break down for fear they'd think he was unstable and insist on staying with him. “Really...I'm just tired...I didn't sleep much.”
“How did you get to the hospital?” Koki asked next.
“I walked, I was a little dazed right after, concussed they think, I didn't even think about calling anyone, I didn't take anything out of the car with me and I just kept walking in the direction of the street lights until I found a hospital...”
Koki nodded. “And what did the doctors say?”
“I'm fine...sprained wrist” he said, indicating his bandaged wrist. “Probably concussion, but I'm ok to sleep now, and whiplash. They told the manager I should take a few days off, but I think I'll be fine once I sleep.”
Koki and Kame exchanged a meaningful look. “I have work.” Kame announced. “Koki is free for a couple of hours, he'll stay with you for now, just in case you need anything.”
“I don't need...” he started, but he was cut off by Koki.
“I don't care. I'm staying so get used to it. I'll run you a bath and then you can sleep all right?”
He heaved a sigh and nodded, defeated. “Thank you.”
Kame stood to leave and rubbed Taguchi's shoulder “Take care all right? And I know it's hard but...maybe when you feel up to it, you could give Ueda a call. He feels really bad about how he's been with you.”
Chapter 20 | Chapter 22
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What?! You didn't really think I would kill him off? Nah, I just wanted to scare you guys >_< he's fine. Last chapter for the section should be up next week :D