To four people.
Lately I can't seem to figure out how I should be feeling. When things happen that upset me, I honestly don't know whether the situation is as bad as that first instinct would suggest. Or is it when the hurt goes away and I decide it wasn't that bad. Is that initial response irrational? Is the delayed (calm) response denial? In a way, I wish I had some way of knowing that the proper response should be. I want someone to tell me how I should feel, but if anyone ever did, I'd reject what they told me.
I know, there's no "proper" response to any situation. I suppose I just wish there were. It feels like it'd be easier if I knew what was a mistake. But I guess sometimes I have the tendency to view life as one of those Choose Your Own Adventure books. With several possible happy endings, but where a wrong choice leads to one of about a thousand gruesome deaths (or, in this case, a crappy, miserable life).
(I actually drew a diagram of this, but Livejournal won't let me upload it. Bastards.)
I know, there's no "proper" response to any situation. I suppose I just wish there were. It feels like it'd be easier if I knew what was a mistake. But I guess sometimes I have the tendency to view life as one of those Choose Your Own Adventure books. With several possible happy endings, but where a wrong choice leads to one of about a thousand gruesome deaths (or, in this case, a crappy, miserable life).
(I actually drew a diagram of this, but Livejournal won't let me upload it. Bastards.)