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yeahhh. and happy new year.
i love you Jesus, thank you for this past year, and your faithfulness during it, regardless of my doubts, as i have doubted. i remember those nights when i couldn't sleep because i was was worried about him, and i got down on my knees and i cried out to you to save him, and i was so discouraged, so weary, so depressed, i don't think i've ever cried so much in my life. And i doubted you, your presence, and then you would encourage me, through a friend, through a verse, through a phone call, and you were so faithful God. i remember days when i couldn't eat, because i was so worried. when i grew physically sick and threw up because of the stress. And you watched me, your child, suffer and you would whisper to me "rest in me." i remember driving home, tears streaming down my face, asking you "why?", yelling to you that i couldn't do it anymore. and your answer, "place your burdens upon me, i will be your strength in your weakness, rest in me." I am sorry to say i've forgotten it already, Lord help me not to. I want to remember everything, the good and the bad, may it be a constant reminder of your faithfulness. i love you Jesus.