letter from a concerned follower (part 2)

[theschoolgirl]

sometimes i don't know what to do with myself; my hands, my mind, my body. they could be of better use to you. I feel like i'm wasting away in here. i think i would know if you were calling me to something... it's not like i'm struggling, i'm just bored. or maybe i'm just deaf. i only think i'm ready anyway. but this is what i have to deal with. i can, if you would only provide the means...
PEACE child, I AM

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