So she was a casualty of the hideous 2016, too, am I right? :(
I have had that litterbox-moving thing too, as well as all the other stuff you listed and just could not stop weeping as I read, having just gone through the same thing. I have cried over Rosa-näsa three times since reading this post and now I have tears rolling down my face again. It's just the most awful, awful of things when it's a special, loving, understanding cat like that; I know how much she meant to you. :.( I am just going to bed and will light a candle in Noki's urn (as I do every night) and will tell her to take Rosa in her cuddly embrace and reminisce about all the love she got from you/us.
Yeah. I made it through 2016, but Rose-nosen didn't. ;_; I've dreamt about her twice since she passed. Both times she climbed up into my embrace and started purring and rubbing her face against mine. And the strange thing was that I knew they were dreams while I was dreaming, as if they were moments of grace granted me. As if they were messages of love from her, from beyond.
That's exactly what I got from Noki, too. And some of them were when I wasn't even fully asleep. I could distinctly feel her curling up to spoon me the way we did every night, and she started purring and comforting me. And you're absolutely right about the feeling of *grace* there. Like they really do come and comfort us, to give us just a few more snuggles because we are in such terrible pain without them. I don't give a whit about whether there's an afterlife for cats or if it's something cooked up by our own brain chemicals, it's a real phenomenon and it helps. While it hurts like hell at the same time (I'm crying again as I'm typing this). That presence of another living being being gone is *horrible.* Especially when it's old maids like us where the cat is there solely for us, loving only us, not judging us. I get the feeling Rosa was one of those intelligent cats, too, who was a friend and more than 'just a cat.' And I'm still not over the loss of mine and being left with just a 'normal' cat--whom I love, but it's still awful
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*HUGE HUGS*
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I have had that litterbox-moving thing too, as well as all the other stuff you listed and just could not stop weeping as I read, having just gone through the same thing. I have cried over Rosa-näsa three times since reading this post and now I have tears rolling down my face again. It's just the most awful, awful of things when it's a special, loving, understanding cat like that; I know how much she meant to you. :.( I am just going to bed and will light a candle in Noki's urn (as I do every night) and will tell her to take Rosa in her cuddly embrace and reminisce about all the love she got from you/us.
So, so many heartbroken hugs. *SQUISH*
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I've dreamt about her twice since she passed. Both times she climbed up into my embrace and started purring and rubbing her face against mine. And the strange thing was that I knew they were dreams while I was dreaming, as if they were moments of grace granted me. As if they were messages of love from her, from beyond.
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