She knows she's gonna be allright.
Feeling so much better now. ^____^ The night and the thoughts just overpowers me sometimes. But I skipped school yesterday, was planning to watch the Oscars, but we didn't have the right channel here, so I spent some time on internet and went to sleep.
Then luin_lotecame home and we watched the last episodes of Tenipuri. It's over. OMG. The finals almost killed me, but I love them all sooo much! And random appearance of Akutsu made me happy! It's funny how I really really hated him up until he was sweet to Dan. ^^;;;
Also, I have these tics when I start singing "saru, gorilla, chimpancee~" PoT has made me weirder than I was before.
Subaru is absolutely gorgeous in the new magazines. I just want to squeeze him! ♥
I calculated my attendance rate and even if I go to school every day from now on, I will still not get my certificate. Great. Oh well, I can still get that paper saying that I've been in school. And that's really all I need.
LJ fucked up my last entry so I'm deleting that and reposting the meme here instead, sorry if some of you have already read it. ^^;;
Comment to this post and I will give you 5 subjects/things I associate you with. Then post this in your LJ and elaborate on the subjects given.
Subjects given from alissa ♥
1. Flat Five Flowers
When I first heard about this I was so excited I didn't really know what to do with myself, and then when the dates came up and I realized that yes, I would be able to go I think I actually cried. The prospect of Subaru doing something he's been wanting to do for such a long time, and to be able to see yet another side of him, just made me overwhelmingly happy. ♥ As for FiVe, of course I knew about them but I didn't know them. And then, the same day as I came back to Japan, October 4th I went to Odaiba and saw them. I still don't have words for it. My head was already in a mess from severe jetlag, and it got even worse once they came on stage. Subaru. Oh god. Just the love I feel for that guy. When he sings, I, and I believe everyone who hears him live, gets completely drawn in to the world he's creating with his voice. He has the ability to make me cry and laugh and feel in a way that's just pure magic. But the thing is, FFF is not just Subaru, it's all of FiVe too. The concert was not a Subaru concert, it was a FFF concert. They are all great! ♥ Rikiya is really really high up on my favourites list nowadays, right after the eight that will always be there on top. I also loved how Subaru seemed so completely in his right element up there on that stage. He held all these speaches and was joking and talking and talking and talking. I've never heard him talk that much at eito-cons. I guess it's because there's two guys there taking all the talking-time. I love all FFF songs really much! And to get to hear Greedy and Everyday music live.. And I loved their version of Wahaha! ♥ Since I couldn't find an affordable ticket for the last show, on the 6th (not even I pay 130 000 yen for a ticket), I spent that time outside, with loads of other fangirls. It was nice when I wasn't crying. I started crying three songs before Greedy, because I knew it was coming and I wasn't in there.
Then when I heard about the Toshi Wasure Lives I was so thrilled, because it felt like it would make up for me not being able to see that last concert. That concert was absolutely amazing too. First time for me to be at a non-seat concert, and it was thrilling, even if the Japanese are very polite and don't try to crush each other like I'm used to at festivals and stuff. And there was the moment of Subaru looking at me, smiling, waving.. and looking at me, right in the eyes. I died. And Pray. Oh god!
AND THEN AGAIN! J-ROCK DREAM MATCHY. Too lucky! I was able to see them two times more! ♥ And you have all seen the pictures. He was absolutely breathtakingly beautiful. FFF's version of Z was magic, as was the rest of it. ♥
I'm hoping that there will be a album release with them. It doesn't feel like it's completely impossible, so I'll keep on hoping. And of course for more concerts, there will be already, but a bigger tour later (sometime after a eito-tour I hope).
God. I can't keep it short. ^^;;;
2. Subaru/Yasu
They are so much love! I love them because they are so awfully married. I love them because they keep on giving us OTP-moment after OTP-moment. I love them because it feels like Subaru has found home after his angst-period (even if Hina probably was the one who helped him out of that the most). I love them because they give us the greatest fanservice. I love them because what they are are beyond fanservice. I love them because they inspire people to write amazing fanfiction about them (and I love that I have two of my top 5 Subassan-writers on my flist nowadays). I love them because how they look at each other when they're on stage, Subaru singing and Yasu playing his guitar. I love them because they make amazing music together. I love them because they love each other. I love them because I really think they are together. I mean, for real, just as T&T. Call me delusional, but I do. ^^
3. Sweden
My homecountry. It's cold. I don't hate Sweden. I once thought I did, especially my hometown. But I grew up and realized that it's a nice little place. I'm from a small little, ehm, not even town called Hultsfred in the south of Sweden. Hultsfred hosts one of Swedens' biggest music festivals. Hultsfreds population increases with at least the double during the festival week. I love swedish summer, at least when it's not rainy summers. It's hot, but not too hot. The winter is long though. The worst thing is snow in April. Luckily that doesn't happen that much in the south of Sweden. I also love Swedish christmas food, midsummer, chocolate. . . To go to IKEA's Swedish food corner is like going to heaven when you've been living in another country for a while. The first semi-hot day in the Spring causes half of the swedish population to catch a cold, because we all decide that "YEY! FINALLY! SPRING!" and takes off our wintercoats and sits in the sun and ignores the fact that we are all freezing cold. I guess we just love warmth and light so much because we don't have as much of it as many other countries.
4. Acting
I love acting. Apart from eito there's nothing I'm as passionate about. I want to become a actress. One of the greatest things I've ever experienced was at my last school when we were working with our last production and felt the play and the character come to life. It's hard work, it's painful, it causes you to cry in desperation, but it's so worth it in the end. My problem when it comes to acting is my self-confidence. I do believe that somewhere I do have talent, but there's always hundreds of others that are much much more talented. And this is a way you just can't think when you're in this buisness. It's an unforgiving world, when you have to be on top every audition and you have to be able to still believe in yourself even if you get 9 noes out of 10. Because that's how it is. There are not enough roles for half of the unemployed actors out there. I know all this. But this is the only thing I want to do, the only thing I can see myself doing 10-20-30 years in the future. I want to do stage acting, but I'd love to try film acting too. My dream is to be in an international acting group because the way of acting is really different from country to country, even if you work from the same school.
The plays I'd love to be a part of is anything Shakespeare and Tjechov. And also some modern Swedish playwrites. Oh, there is just too much I'd love to do.
5. Shopping
I have a shopaholic-problem. For real. I always had. It used to be CD's and clothes and shoes. They are still something I love to buy. People who says that shopping doesn't make you happy, have never bought those perfect shoes that makes you smile every time you wear them! Nowadays though, my shoppingaddiction is all about Johnny's. When it comes to clothing and stuff, I can restrain myself if I really can't afford it. But when it comes to Johnny's, or more like eito, it's just impossible. That's why I keep away from all the shops right now. One thing I love is buying new shop photos and putting them into my albums. I have them sorted as much as possible in timeline. But I'm not too sure about the older ones. I have my 47 photos sorted by the clothes they're wearing, I sat and watched the DVD and put the right clothes in the right order. I kinda regretted it half through, but oh well. Uchiwas and photos are my biggest addictions, but how could I ever live with not buying completely necessary things such as the Subaru mouse pad? ^____^
Yup, that's it! Why keep anything short? ^^;;;
Then luin_lotecame home and we watched the last episodes of Tenipuri. It's over. OMG. The finals almost killed me, but I love them all sooo much! And random appearance of Akutsu made me happy! It's funny how I really really hated him up until he was sweet to Dan. ^^;;;
Also, I have these tics when I start singing "saru, gorilla, chimpancee~" PoT has made me weirder than I was before.
Subaru is absolutely gorgeous in the new magazines. I just want to squeeze him! ♥
I calculated my attendance rate and even if I go to school every day from now on, I will still not get my certificate. Great. Oh well, I can still get that paper saying that I've been in school. And that's really all I need.
LJ fucked up my last entry so I'm deleting that and reposting the meme here instead, sorry if some of you have already read it. ^^;;
Comment to this post and I will give you 5 subjects/things I associate you with. Then post this in your LJ and elaborate on the subjects given.
Subjects given from alissa ♥
1. Flat Five Flowers
When I first heard about this I was so excited I didn't really know what to do with myself, and then when the dates came up and I realized that yes, I would be able to go I think I actually cried. The prospect of Subaru doing something he's been wanting to do for such a long time, and to be able to see yet another side of him, just made me overwhelmingly happy. ♥ As for FiVe, of course I knew about them but I didn't know them. And then, the same day as I came back to Japan, October 4th I went to Odaiba and saw them. I still don't have words for it. My head was already in a mess from severe jetlag, and it got even worse once they came on stage. Subaru. Oh god. Just the love I feel for that guy. When he sings, I, and I believe everyone who hears him live, gets completely drawn in to the world he's creating with his voice. He has the ability to make me cry and laugh and feel in a way that's just pure magic. But the thing is, FFF is not just Subaru, it's all of FiVe too. The concert was not a Subaru concert, it was a FFF concert. They are all great! ♥ Rikiya is really really high up on my favourites list nowadays, right after the eight that will always be there on top. I also loved how Subaru seemed so completely in his right element up there on that stage. He held all these speaches and was joking and talking and talking and talking. I've never heard him talk that much at eito-cons. I guess it's because there's two guys there taking all the talking-time. I love all FFF songs really much! And to get to hear Greedy and Everyday music live.. And I loved their version of Wahaha! ♥ Since I couldn't find an affordable ticket for the last show, on the 6th (not even I pay 130 000 yen for a ticket), I spent that time outside, with loads of other fangirls. It was nice when I wasn't crying. I started crying three songs before Greedy, because I knew it was coming and I wasn't in there.
Then when I heard about the Toshi Wasure Lives I was so thrilled, because it felt like it would make up for me not being able to see that last concert. That concert was absolutely amazing too. First time for me to be at a non-seat concert, and it was thrilling, even if the Japanese are very polite and don't try to crush each other like I'm used to at festivals and stuff. And there was the moment of Subaru looking at me, smiling, waving.. and looking at me, right in the eyes. I died. And Pray. Oh god!
AND THEN AGAIN! J-ROCK DREAM MATCHY. Too lucky! I was able to see them two times more! ♥ And you have all seen the pictures. He was absolutely breathtakingly beautiful. FFF's version of Z was magic, as was the rest of it. ♥
I'm hoping that there will be a album release with them. It doesn't feel like it's completely impossible, so I'll keep on hoping. And of course for more concerts, there will be already, but a bigger tour later (sometime after a eito-tour I hope).
God. I can't keep it short. ^^;;;
2. Subaru/Yasu
They are so much love! I love them because they are so awfully married. I love them because they keep on giving us OTP-moment after OTP-moment. I love them because it feels like Subaru has found home after his angst-period (even if Hina probably was the one who helped him out of that the most). I love them because they give us the greatest fanservice. I love them because what they are are beyond fanservice. I love them because they inspire people to write amazing fanfiction about them (and I love that I have two of my top 5 Subassan-writers on my flist nowadays). I love them because how they look at each other when they're on stage, Subaru singing and Yasu playing his guitar. I love them because they make amazing music together. I love them because they love each other. I love them because I really think they are together. I mean, for real, just as T&T. Call me delusional, but I do. ^^
3. Sweden
My homecountry. It's cold. I don't hate Sweden. I once thought I did, especially my hometown. But I grew up and realized that it's a nice little place. I'm from a small little, ehm, not even town called Hultsfred in the south of Sweden. Hultsfred hosts one of Swedens' biggest music festivals. Hultsfreds population increases with at least the double during the festival week. I love swedish summer, at least when it's not rainy summers. It's hot, but not too hot. The winter is long though. The worst thing is snow in April. Luckily that doesn't happen that much in the south of Sweden. I also love Swedish christmas food, midsummer, chocolate. . . To go to IKEA's Swedish food corner is like going to heaven when you've been living in another country for a while. The first semi-hot day in the Spring causes half of the swedish population to catch a cold, because we all decide that "YEY! FINALLY! SPRING!" and takes off our wintercoats and sits in the sun and ignores the fact that we are all freezing cold. I guess we just love warmth and light so much because we don't have as much of it as many other countries.
4. Acting
I love acting. Apart from eito there's nothing I'm as passionate about. I want to become a actress. One of the greatest things I've ever experienced was at my last school when we were working with our last production and felt the play and the character come to life. It's hard work, it's painful, it causes you to cry in desperation, but it's so worth it in the end. My problem when it comes to acting is my self-confidence. I do believe that somewhere I do have talent, but there's always hundreds of others that are much much more talented. And this is a way you just can't think when you're in this buisness. It's an unforgiving world, when you have to be on top every audition and you have to be able to still believe in yourself even if you get 9 noes out of 10. Because that's how it is. There are not enough roles for half of the unemployed actors out there. I know all this. But this is the only thing I want to do, the only thing I can see myself doing 10-20-30 years in the future. I want to do stage acting, but I'd love to try film acting too. My dream is to be in an international acting group because the way of acting is really different from country to country, even if you work from the same school.
The plays I'd love to be a part of is anything Shakespeare and Tjechov. And also some modern Swedish playwrites. Oh, there is just too much I'd love to do.
5. Shopping
I have a shopaholic-problem. For real. I always had. It used to be CD's and clothes and shoes. They are still something I love to buy. People who says that shopping doesn't make you happy, have never bought those perfect shoes that makes you smile every time you wear them! Nowadays though, my shoppingaddiction is all about Johnny's. When it comes to clothing and stuff, I can restrain myself if I really can't afford it. But when it comes to Johnny's, or more like eito, it's just impossible. That's why I keep away from all the shops right now. One thing I love is buying new shop photos and putting them into my albums. I have them sorted as much as possible in timeline. But I'm not too sure about the older ones. I have my 47 photos sorted by the clothes they're wearing, I sat and watched the DVD and put the right clothes in the right order. I kinda regretted it half through, but oh well. Uchiwas and photos are my biggest addictions, but how could I ever live with not buying completely necessary things such as the Subaru mouse pad? ^____^
Yup, that's it! Why keep anything short? ^^;;;