its not that i abide by the rules at all really.. not religious ones.. i've actually been told not to speak of theological topics to the youth of wall highway because what i "teach" may "misguide" youths...
my religious beliefs do originate from documents.. but only the bible.. i'm as much of a baptist, methodist or anything else as a catholic is.. i dunno.. i'm wierd and don't fit in anywhere religiously but that's not what's important...
you're right if you mean i'm way too hard on myself... because i am... i know it .. but that's what drives me.. for now it works..
but the thing about me is i do keep absolutes in my life and my guilt leads to my redemtion.. i don't shy away from it because it makes me better.. my opinion is that by eliminating guilt by just doing whatever feels right and all leads us into the existentialist/ postmodern way of life.. which pretty much is no absolutes i do want i want and feel no guilt. no pain. such a life is void of any meaning and ties into the self-deity worship.. obviously no one person is better than any other nor are they gods..
you go by your gut.. which may work for you but i can't.. especially when it comes to dating and life and such... guys are so stinking weird and all their bodies want is pleasure.. not just sexual but monitary and emotional.. and there's more to life then sex, cash and complements... and i strive towards those things.. recently i've come to the realization that its not that i'm all too weird or out of the ordinary but its the fact i still dream and reach towards my dreams as oppose to just trying to make money, provide for a wife and have kids retire and die.. that's the empty life full of temporary satisfiers...
i really don't know where i'm going.. i'm confusing.. i'm a paradox and totally irrational alot of the time but hey... life is good and i see the light at the end of a very long tunnel.. life is good.
i'd be willing to bet that they people who advised you not to speak of theological topics were not trying to keep the truth away from those kids. or even other perspectives/ideas. its just that they are responsible for the kids and they may not know what your intentions are or what you are going to tell them. its a touchy situation. i can see why they would be cautious.
i never meant to imply that i don't believe in absolutes. i could go on and on about what is true and what will remain true no matter what.
i wouldn't say i'm agnostic. no, that's not it at all. i definitely believe in God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit. but, after about 15 years of striving to know God and dig deep into spirituality and what not, i'm just thinkin its not for janette. i can't take it seriously at all. why continue to fake it, ya know? might as well be honest.
i still love christian theology and enjoy reading about it, but i'm not spiritual. i think spirituality is majorly important, yet i don't take part in it because i'd have to force myself to "like" it.
yeah i totally understand that .. it takes more of a person to admit that hten it does to fake it...
i know so many who just fake it and pretend they're spiritual when the rocks under their feat cry out to GOd more then they..
and i know where you are.. trust me... growing up i didn't totally doubt God as diety.. but it didn't believe in Him.. i hated Christians.. i knew there had to be someone or something greater than myself but i didn't know him.. i wasn't quite athiest or agnostic.. i'm not sure what iw as... i was the doubter who just hated christians "because they're all hypocrites".. i was this for 16 years.. i was also in this time involved and alot of stuff that should have landed me in jail.. i was mean a jerk and the last person anyone would want to befriend...
people at wallhighway don't really know this person, nor have they ever- few even believe he ever lived.. but i've only been a christian for a little over two years .. i've only really gotten things straight with God, down pat in spirituality and theology for about the past year.. am i set for life in Christianity and my beliefs are concrete? yes i'll always bea Christian, but no my beliefs are never concrete.. that makes it to where GOd cna't do squat in your life anymore.. i enjoy having Him play an active role in my life..
i respect you for your honesty.. i have no ill opinions of you at all either.. dont' think that i do.. nor did i intend to accuse you of being a postmodernist or anything... i aim my LJs and comments to [audience] whom ever shall read it if their interested.. i try to be precise and clear about what i'ms aying because people like to twist my words and use them against me alot... immature adn annoying..
my religious beliefs do originate from documents.. but only the bible.. i'm as much of a baptist, methodist or anything else as a catholic is.. i dunno.. i'm wierd and don't fit in anywhere religiously but that's not what's important...
you're right if you mean i'm way too hard on myself... because i am... i know it .. but that's what drives me.. for now it works..
but the thing about me is i do keep absolutes in my life and my guilt leads to my redemtion.. i don't shy away from it because it makes me better.. my opinion is that by eliminating guilt by just doing whatever feels right and all leads us into the existentialist/ postmodern way of life.. which pretty much is no absolutes i do want i want and feel no guilt. no pain. such a life is void of any meaning and ties into the self-deity worship.. obviously no one person is better than any other nor are they gods..
you go by your gut.. which may work for you but i can't.. especially when it comes to dating and life and such... guys are so stinking weird and all their bodies want is pleasure.. not just sexual but monitary and emotional.. and there's more to life then sex, cash and complements... and i strive towards those things.. recently i've come to the realization that its not that i'm all too weird or out of the ordinary but its the fact i still dream and reach towards my dreams as oppose to just trying to make money, provide for a wife and have kids retire and die.. that's the empty life full of temporary satisfiers...
i really don't know where i'm going.. i'm confusing.. i'm a paradox and totally irrational alot of the time but hey... life is good and i see the light at the end of a very long tunnel.. life is good.
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i never meant to imply that i don't believe in absolutes. i could go on and on about what is true and what will remain true no matter what.
i wouldn't say i'm agnostic. no, that's not it at all. i definitely believe in God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit. but, after about 15 years of striving to know God and dig deep into spirituality and what not, i'm just thinkin its not for janette. i can't take it seriously at all. why continue to fake it, ya know? might as well be honest.
i still love christian theology and enjoy reading about it, but i'm not spiritual. i think spirituality is majorly important, yet i don't take part in it because i'd have to force myself to "like" it.
tired of pretending, that's all.
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i know so many who just fake it and pretend they're spiritual when the rocks under their feat cry out to GOd more then they..
and i know where you are.. trust me... growing up i didn't totally doubt God as diety.. but it didn't believe in Him.. i hated Christians.. i knew there had to be someone or something greater than myself but i didn't know him.. i wasn't quite athiest or agnostic.. i'm not sure what iw as... i was the doubter who just hated christians "because they're all hypocrites".. i was this for 16 years.. i was also in this time involved and alot of stuff that should have landed me in jail.. i was mean a jerk and the last person anyone would want to befriend...
people at wallhighway don't really know this person, nor have they ever- few even believe he ever lived.. but i've only been a christian for a little over two years .. i've only really gotten things straight with God, down pat in spirituality and theology for about the past year.. am i set for life in Christianity and my beliefs are concrete? yes i'll always bea Christian, but no my beliefs are never concrete.. that makes it to where GOd cna't do squat in your life anymore.. i enjoy having Him play an active role in my life..
i respect you for your honesty.. i have no ill opinions of you at all either.. dont' think that i do.. nor did i intend to accuse you of being a postmodernist or anything... i aim my LJs and comments to [audience] whom ever shall read it if their interested.. i try to be precise and clear about what i'ms aying because people like to twist my words and use them against me alot... immature adn annoying..
well off to bed for ry.. night!
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