You can dance if you want to.
I woke up today feeling a little less rested than I had been. I'm in love with my own deceptive fabrication, this beautiful, loving woman who walks through my head as if she lived there. I find myself waking up heartbroken every morning. How come we are the best decievers of ourself? I don't trust myself so why do I keep falling for my own tricks. I hate to admit i'm an active supporter of both sides of my own argument. I guess no one wants to be one sided but being two faced isn't all that admirable either. Here I go doubting everyone aorund me when I'm the one I should worry about. I'm the one they should worry about. I'm the one with words for every subject but opinions on none. What ideas do I have that I didn't lick from someone elses lips. Am I more innocent cause I'm unconscious. Am I more innocent cause I don't know how to change it. Am I more innocent because you don't know. I daily recall the hypocrits of my life as they justify why I should be happy based on things that they say shouldn't matter. Superficial things bring shallow happiness. Go on, give me a cookie. Shut me up. I don't know where you get off being so clueless but either you are a lot more oblivious then you let on or you're lying to yourself. Sometimes paranoid people are right. Everytime you ask whats wrong, you're checking my pulse even though you can already smell me rot from outside the door. You ask "Why?" but you were there when it happened. You were the only one there... I've been gone a long time... is it hope, denial, or just procedure?
I almost feel sorry for what I'm gonna do...
Other points to ponder:
I think I'm only gonna sleep every other day. I feel so... sedated.
I really hope I get into the art department. *sits anxiously*
Friday classes suck balls... really they do.
It's always good to have someone around to tell you when your gonna regret something later... but only if they tell you why.
Don't bite off more than you can chew, don't bite off as much as you can chew. Wait till what you really want comes along so you have a mouth to eat it with. I'm starving.
I couldn't tell you how to get the truth from me. My mouth lies but so does my body but usually not at the same time.
I need to buy a bed. I gotta get out of here. I need someone to sleep in this bed. I need to buy a smaller bed...
Thank you. I love you all so much.
I'm kinda pretty...
and pretty damn smart.
I like romantic things
like music and art.
And as you know
I have a gigantic heart.
So why don't I have a girlfriend...?
FUCK!
It sucks to be me.
-Avenue Q
I almost feel sorry for what I'm gonna do...
Other points to ponder:
I think I'm only gonna sleep every other day. I feel so... sedated.
I really hope I get into the art department. *sits anxiously*
Friday classes suck balls... really they do.
It's always good to have someone around to tell you when your gonna regret something later... but only if they tell you why.
Don't bite off more than you can chew, don't bite off as much as you can chew. Wait till what you really want comes along so you have a mouth to eat it with. I'm starving.
I couldn't tell you how to get the truth from me. My mouth lies but so does my body but usually not at the same time.
I need to buy a bed. I gotta get out of here. I need someone to sleep in this bed. I need to buy a smaller bed...
Thank you. I love you all so much.
I'm kinda pretty...
and pretty damn smart.
I like romantic things
like music and art.
And as you know
I have a gigantic heart.
So why don't I have a girlfriend...?
FUCK!
It sucks to be me.
-Avenue Q