[Multi-chapter] Love you one more time (4/4) (part 2)
Title: Love you one more time (4/4) (Part 2)
Pairing: Ohmiya
Rating: PG-13
Genre: angst, romance
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the story.
Summary: After an accident, Ohno had forgotten the person he wasn't supposed to forget.
A/N:
Finally, it’s the final chapter ne~!!! This time it’s beta-ed by potatoosThank you very much <3 <3 <3 <3, you’re really amazing >__<. And minna-san, thanks for following the story until now >__<, love all of you~
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When the two had left, Ohno looked at Nino worriedly. He never wanted to see Nino like this again - His face lowered, eyes sad and he was trying to hide his feelings, even though he seemed unsuccessful.
- Nino? - Ohno hesitated.
- Hai? - Nino’s voice was almost inaudible. His eyes were not looking at Ohno, but were wandering around the room and he seemed very uncomfortable about some unknown reasons. Ohno frowned.
- Are you mad at me?
- No. Why? - Nino checked his hand again and took his cup, then put it down and looked at the door.
- You’re acting weird - Ohno pointed out.
- Am I?
- Yes. What’s wrong?
- Nothing.
- You’re lying - Ohno arched his eyebrows - There’s no way it’s nothing.
Nino kept silent and stared at his dish for a moment, then sighed.
- Ohchan…
- Hai? - Ohno raised his head to look at Nino’s eyes, but still, Nino refused to make eye contact with him.
- What am I to you…? - Nino said with a hardly audible voice.
- Eh…? - Ohno didn’t expect this question and froze at his spot - What… do you mean?
Nino didn’t answer, but shut his eyes and remained silent again. This made Ohno felt uneasy for the first time - he always enjoyed his time with Nino and he thought that nothing could make them feel like this - ridiculous and absurd.
- Nino? - Ohno whispered.
- …
- Is it because of Chinen? - Ohno knitted his eyebrows, a vague feeling came to his mind. Somehow, he felt that it’s familiar. He guessed it was Chinen making Nino uneasy, and he was kind of sure of it.
- … He loves you, you know that - Nino mumbled.
- It’s because of Chinen? - He asked again. When Nino refused to answer, he continued - There’s nothing between us, you know…
- I don’t know - Nino squeezed his eyes- Ohchan… You remember everything about that kid, right?
- Yes… I think so - Ohno hesitated - I met him at art school when he went to apply so I helped him with that. Then we went out sometimes because he has the same hobby as me, and…
- ‘kay, stop that - Nino grunted - I don’t want you to talk about your love story!
- Nino - Ohno narrowed his eyes - Are you jealous?
- I’m not!!! - Nino protested as he looked away - Why must I be?
- Nino… - Ohno smiled sheepishly. When he knew the reason, Nino became a very cute guy with his jealousy - Come on - He stretched his hand and hold Nino’s tightly - I don’t have any feelings for Chinen, okay? We’re just friends!
- You keep saying that … - Nino muttered - But you remember all about him. Not me.
- Nino…! - Ohno squeezed Nino’s hand and looked at him gently - Please believe me.
Nino shut his eyes and took a deep breath. He couldn’t fight the feeling which was growing quickly in his heart. The feeling from the last few months began to take control of his mind again and he didn’t know what to feel anymore. He shook his hand out of Ohno’s hold, stood up and said sadly.
- Sometimes I wonder why, Ohchan - Nino turned away - You forget me so easily…
And he walked away, not noticing the hurt expression in Ohno’s eyes. Ohno looked at his disappearing back, feeling confused and heartbroken.
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Ohno didn’t see Nino again since that day. He tried calling Nino everyday but whenever Nino picked up, he was always too busy to talk over a minute. And Ohno would hang up feeling deeply frustrated. It was really a disaster, that meeting with Chinen… Ohno thought. Everything had been going smoothly between them, and Ohno could feel how happy he was when he’s with Nino. And now that he’s become used to it, Nino suddenly kept his distance from him, and this made him more confused and down with each passing day. Even though he sent Nino many messages, Nino only sent one back to tell Ohno that he didn’t really use the messaging system to communicate so Ohno should stop sending him any. This caused Ohno more hurt and he tried to call Nino, but ended up listening to his auto-answer-machine again.
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- Is that okay? - Jun asked after he heard Nino said goodbye to Ohno, telling him that he was extremely busy with his work, when in fact he was actually having a drink with Jun.
- What? - Nino glanced at him.
- Dodging him again? - Jun drank his vodka.
- Not really - Nino muttered.
- You two are childish! - Jun smirked- Why don’t you just meet him and shout to his face that you love him and you want that Chinen to get out of your life?
- I’m not that crazy - Nino scowled - Moreover, he knows that I love him!! But he just simply doesn’t love me back. Should I mad at him because of that??
- But he loved you, right? - Jun stared at Nino - You need to bring that feeling back to him, you know!
- He did love me - Nino said bitterly - And now? No. Why did he remember Chinen, but not me?
- …Isn’t that because you’re special? - Jun arched his eyebrows - Don’t you think so?
- What?
- He remembers all of us, his family, and Chinen, but not you, right? Isn’t it because you’re more special than others? - Jun took his drink and finished it.
- Is that so…? - Nino hesitated. He seemed never thought about it this way. He suffered for a long time and couldn’t find a way to get out of it. Now that Jun said this, it became easier to accept the truth.
- Yes. Go to meet him. You guys make me tired! I have been listening to you for all this time you know, what about my job?
- I’m looking for some sympathy here, Jun-pon! - Nino knitted his eyebrows.
- Well, look for it somewhere else - Jun said simply and stood up - You should go straight to meet him. And - He turned away - stop calling me by that nickname!
- Jun-pon - Nino emphasized the name - …Arigatou ne.
- You’re welcome - Jun said and went back to his work, leaving Nino behind.
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It was Saturday again. Ohno sighed when he looked at the calendar, and wondered what he should do for the rest of the day. He had totally believed that Nino would call him before Saturday and, somehow, they would clear everything up and spend a nice day together. Well, that was just what he had imagined. Nino hadn’t called him back nor sent him any messages, except the one that refused his texts. Maybe Nino really wants to cancel the date today, Ohno thought, feeling extremely disappointed. He thought he could use today to say to Nino… that he wanted to love him again in his life…
But because of some stupid things - and those might his fault - he lost his chance now. He was the one who forgot and ignored Nino at the first place, so he deserved this - being ignored and knowing how hurting it could be. Even though he still kept his promise - he didn’t try to think about the past anymore, he could feel his love for Nino growing with each day. He wanted to meet him, hug him, to feel his warmth around him, he wanted to see his smile, his eyes… He wasn’t surprised when he realised that he was really in love with Nino. Again. But he hadn’t told Nino that… Nino was sure he hadn’t remembered him nor love him, and that was hurting him, right?
Ohno spent nearly an hour staring at the canvas in front of him and then gave up. Without Nino, he could not see any image in his mind, and so he couldn’t paint anything. He folded all his stuff and stood up, reached for his coat and intended to go to the conference - which he nearly cancelled because of the date with Nino, but now it seemed unnecessary to do so anymore. He sighed in defeat and grabbed the key on the table. He would take a long walk… He wasn’t in the mood to go by bus as it was too crowded and noisy. He just wanted to be alone and think about Nino. How could he have him again in his life?
When Ohno opened the door, he saw a man who was standing at the opposite pavement of his house, his hands were deep inside his pocket, his face pale and he was shivering in the cold wind. Ohno’s eyes widened when he recognized that the man was Nino. His heart raced in his chest, and he stepped faster. Nino raised his head to see Ohno walking out, and gave him a weak smile but didn’t say anything.
Ohno ran to Nino and before he could think of anything, he found his arms wrapped around Nino and pulled him into a tight embrace. Nino’s breath was hot, but his face was so cold. Ohno cupped his hands on Nino’s cheeks to to give them some warmth and then he hugged Nino tightly again. He could feel Nino hugged him back, his chin resting on Ohno’s shoulder. Ohno could feel the man was numbed by the cold as he kissed Nino’s forehead.
- I really really missed you… - Ohno whispered. He could see Nino’s weak smile.
- Me too… Ohchan, I’m sorry - Nino mumbled. He buried his face into Ohno’s chest, and squeezed his eyes - I was wrong…
- No, that’s me - Ohno cupped Nino’s face and looked into his eyes with a smile - I’m sorry, for making you feel hurt like that…
- I have no right to be mad at you - Nino bit his lips and looked away, and tried to hide his suffering - That’s okay for you… you know… to love someone else… I can’t force you to do anything, ne? It just… I was jealous of Chinen… so I couldn’t think it clearly, so…
- Nino… - Ohno whispered - You don’t need to say that…
- Really - Nino could feel his eyes started to be pooled- As long as you’re happy, that’s okay for me ne, Ohchan.
- So… is it okay that I’m in love with someone? - Ohno admitted and saw a tear rolling down Nino’s eyes. He used his thumb to wipe it away and smiled gently.
- … Well… okay… - Nino’s voice hoarsed - … just… who is it?
Ohno didn’t answer. Time seemed to stop temporarily and Nino looked desperately into Ohno’s eyes. Ohno’s hands were still on Nino’s cheeks, except that he didn’t try to wipe Nino’s tears again.
Then Ohno leaned in closer to Nino. He put his lips gently on Nino’s, startling the younger man and causing him to open his eyes widely. He seemed not to believe what was happening, and when Ohno deepened the kiss, Nino knew that this was real. He closed his eyes and enjoyed the warmth from Ohno soaking into his body, and he kissed Ohno back. No hesitance, Ohno now remembered this feeling… The kiss became more demanding, and until their breaths nearly stopped, they parted. Ohno pulled back and smiled at Nino, who was totally confused with what was happening.
- I’m in love with you, Nino - he whispered - so badly that I can’t stop myself… Is that okay?
- … Really? - Nino couldn’t hide his smile and even with the cold weather, his cheeks started to burn - … That’s okay ne…
- I love you - Ohno hugged Nino tightly - I love you, Nino. Please never leave me again… My life is meaningless without you beside me…
- You were the one who left me - Nino teased lightly - You must pay for that now, you know?
- Well, how much?
- How much do you think?
- … All my days? - Ohno grinned.
- Okay - Nino laughed and held Ohno’s hand, then led him to his car - We have a date today, right? So where do you want to go?
- The sea!!! - Ohno said without thinking, his eyes brightened when he thought about fishing.
- I hate the sea - Nino frowned - And forget it, I don’t want to spend my day watching you fish.
- Oh, okay - Ohno pouted - So where do you want to go?
- Game Center? - Nino smirked.
- What? Is a date supposed to be like that? - Ohno rolled his eyes in disbelief.
- Yes, if it’s a date with me - Nino said playfully.
- You’re so mean… - Ohno pouted - I don’t wanna…
- Okay, come on, let’s go to the beach - Nino wrapped his arm around Ohno’s waist, making Ohno’s grin bigger - Forget about fishing, you’re mine for today!
- Okay… - Ohno laughed.
They walked to Nino’s car and Ohno smiled to himself. Even though he may never remember the past, but he was sure he could built a new story for both of them … He had Nino beside him and had no intention to let him go. Ohno reached for Nino’s hand, entwining them with his own, and he squeezed it tightly. “Please let me love you one more time” he whispered, nearly inaudible. Nino held his hand and kissed it gently.
This was the best and most cozy day ever, even though the snow was falling from the high blue sky…
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A/N: so, what do you think about it? Is it okay? >_< I know that many of you want Riida to remember the past, but I think as long as they love each other, they can pass any problem just to be by the other's side. It's not the past is not important but the present and the future is what we should respect and build it, right? Thank you for reading until now, I'm really happy with all your comments, they really made my days ^^.
I'll see you in another fic then~
Arigatou, minna-san!!