Wow..

[theprayer85]

Things with my father aren't getting easier...Him and I are getting into fights constantly...The harder I try to become closer to him like we used to be the further he pushes me away...I feel as if he's becoming more of a business person than a father..he charges me money to sleep here and doesn't even do anything with me...it's like I'm only here cause he has to have me here...It REALLY hurts to feel so far away from someone who you looked up to so much...I mean even though my father and I don't get along I still try so hard to make him proud of me...Just some of the shit he does I don't approve of at ALL...Today he had to drive my step mom to her appointment for her hand...she hurt it at work and has to physicical Thearopy...and I needed a ride at 4:30 and he had to be in a two towns over for 5 for her appointment..Why does he have to drive her? doesn't she know where she's going? his second wife is more important than his own son? Atleast that's the feeling I get...He's pushing me out of his life...and it's making me not want to be a part of it...This weekend is the Region 9 Tang Soo Do Championships...I'm competing...it's going to be hard to get into the ring again but I feel up to it...I've been training like crazy as much as I could..it's hard with teaching all the classes and having your full time job before that...and getting home at 9 sometimes 10PM at night and going to sleep and waking up and doing it again the next day...but what can you do? it's life...

Maybe I'm just sounding like I'm rambling but I feel like shit these days...Tonight I hung out with Rick and Justin...Wow was that crazy...lol..I had fun we went and had pizza and then we went to play pool...Our friend Billy met us there and I haven't seen him since I graduated...idk..it was weird...but a fun night atleast...I'm so tired..and I have work tomorrow so I'm going to sleep..

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Jason