A healthy dose of "narcissistic exhibitionism"
Sometimes, all I ask for is a little less drama in my life. As Andrea has very kindly reaffirmed me, "yes your [my] life is a joke". Argh nevermind I will sabotage the punchline and resolve this properly. Except that whenever I attempt to hog the steering wheel, I always end up doing really stupid things. So this time, I'll be trying my best to listen out for God's voice on the entire matter. Very beautifully put by Mary Oliver in that poem, prayer is but "a silence in which another voice may speak". :) Of course, it's always the decisions one has to make after praying that're hard. GRUNT.
Anyway, school has been wonderful, not absolutely perfect but always promising lots of joy and character-building hoho. The first quartre of my jc life has been filled with all the things that matter: great friends, great company, very enjoyable lessons (I insist Math lectures don't count) and all these diverse experiences that really mean something beyond their novelty factor. Although maybe I do have one tiny... or huge (depending on how/when I look at it)... regret of not having put effort into my academic work. I really don't want to go on and on ad nauseum about how I need to stop taking my education opportunities for granted, about how my current role is fundamentally that of a student, about how much I dislike the slacker that I've become. I guess the reason why I'm always making the same old rants about how behind I am in my work is that I really don't know how to deal with this slacking problem that stealthily snuck into my life post-psle and never went away eversince. It is really... quite bad, for lack of a more powerful and more accurate description. And it is going to become worse because jc work isn't easy and definitely requires studying. Truthfully, I know that my choice to fill up a large portion of my time with what my mum calls "useless things" does place a cap on the extent to which I can realise my potential academically and I wouldn't want to have it any other way because if there was one goal I was determined to keep to at the start of the year, it was to not go through jc as a mugging machine. At the same time, I don't want to swing to the other extreme either (read: screw up a levels and cry) and I ought to treat my position as a student with some respect. It all boils down to self-discipline and yes I have gone through this rhetoric before but this June I am really going to work on recovering some sort of intellectual passion and I will not waste my holidays. I need to get used to the idea of having exams AFTER the holidays. I'll go into Term 3 having metamorphosed from an Ugly Little Slacker to a Beautiful Mugger. Pinky Promise. (I am a little bit scared)
Also, I realise, in very sharp contrast to the last quartre of last year where I had so much time and so little to do, all this while I've been living life without really pausing to do any serious introspection. I've just been doing things in the now and not really thinking (or more like, over-worrying) about why or how or what might happen in the future. Counter-intuitively speaking, it's good because dabbling in existentialist angst and all that can really make a person unnecessarily unhappy. Yeah I know what I am doing and I'm quite happy. :)
This is 13A (without a lot of people but with Mrs Perry)...I love our class, in our blissful little gossip-free bubble.
Claire Tan from Mg, who's also a debator and writes well enough to be "ready for the A Levels!!" lol we're never gonna let her go on that one
Ehh look, our version of a Gossip Girl book cover! AKA Failed Camwhoring (and Cheriel and I have such different noses and mouths and chins, I realise!)
With Lisa the Diva & Xuanwei! :)
Nicholas Cheee, who is an absolute darling and also happens to be a math genius!
Aww they look really happy :D
I was playing with the Macro function and I like this photo a lot! Kinder Joy is also really NOT the same as Kinder Surprise, which had way more chocolate and better toys. Hmph.
Hehe, cacti for Atiqa, Glen and Vic who were all involved in Whose Life Is It Anyway, which was really pretty good. And oh my word hahah I'd never imagine myself saying this but the green cactus is really quite a phallic symbol (perfect for Atiqa!)!
In your face! xD
(The old couple in the background looks quite funny haha)
I *heart* Eden (even though our encounters are often relatively brief but do you remember when we were saigang warriors together for Speech Day 2007!) and Cheriel (Classmate/Pwmate/Chiongingworktogethernearthedeadline-mate...need I say more)!
"Why are you taking a photo of my BOOB?" "I am not! I'm trying to photograph the school badge!" "It is still my boob...I can see the CURVE!" ROFL
With Glenys! :D
Victoria (the bimbotic nurse) delighted by her flowers!
Atiqa, her friend and the Pop-the-cherry thingum (that comes with some form of innuendo, idunnowhat)!
With the Hwachong People (TRAITORS xD)! Aww they all seem to be doing very well and having lots of fun even though they have become part of The Enemy hahaha
The gratuitous dancer camwhoring @ Round 1 of C Dance DSA Auditions x)
R Project! I like this picture :) R-Project was where Claire and I had a COMPLETEFAIL sense of direction and ended up at 33 Mohd Sultan Rd when it was actually at 72-33 Mohd Sultan Rd but we redeemed ourselves afterwards by finding our way to Clarke Quay MRT stations unguided! R-Proj was a good show...some outfits were awesome, some were strange, some models walked really well although some models couldn't and everyone looked really pretty.
With Lisa the designer and Vic the model post-show!
This is Cheryl, one of my humble+talented C Dance seniors and the prettiest J2 ever!
Candice! Tang Guo! :D Haha, in Lisa's words, my "very pretty Chinese Dance friend". Yes Auntie you're very pretty indeed.
Andrea Lim! With her "legs like WOAH" :D
Jo, Claire, Xuanwei, Me haha I have run out of things to say but heartheart
Bella ella ella eh eh!
Claireeeee ♥ (I hope to get to know you better!)
And then we met Sydney Anastasia at the train station (that we got to by ourselves, I must proudly repeat)!
PUFFERFISH :D
Then off I went to the Christian Lacroix exhibition with Andrea
He's a super talented designer who designs for couture, pret-a-porter, theatre and ballet; it was really a visual feast!
And I took some pretty cool photos too hehe
Andrea with the stuff she designed! Haha I bet those dollies are nowhere to be found now.
And it feels really good to camwhore with my foodbuddy/shoppingbuddy after so long!
This is us feeling all content and cheerful after satisfying our Marvellous Cream craving... the ice-cream and waffle bowl is really MARVELLOUS hehe!
A random day after Chinese Dance where I attempted to study with Bea and Bailu! (For some funny reason, I kinda look a little bit like Bea here! We're of the same colour haha!)
The Day Rachel Miao crashed RJ! :D People's reactions were altogether both aww-worthy and hilarious. This was also the day we were freeloaders at RMUN lunch hehh...some things never change, like how Miao and I spend all our time together either stuffing our faces or plotting to stuff our faces!
I LOVE YOU MIAO!
And for old times' sake, Far East Plaza!
Sec 1 days at KFC, Turkish Ice-cream!, Old Chang Kee and Bubble Tea, Chippy's and Shih Lin Chicken, Carl's Jr and being sick of it, the Chicken Rice stall tucked away in a secluded little corner, Tuesdays at Gelare's!!! (just before being late for French), the fake Ramen Place where we had our 315/415 class lunches/dinners, and now there's Slice and that really good wanton mee place which moved over from Heeren's. And how can we forget all the stores with the most bizarre names ever... Fra East and Watts In, yo! I'm an Orchard girl always and forever. :)
And, Special Olympics!
I really like this photo! Haha and I wish the annoying time/date thing would just disappear but I've no idea how to make it go away.
Robyn the Resident Photographer :)
Here, Siying goes, "Wahlauuuu cut me off in the picture!"
Yes this is for you Siyingggg :D
Robyn: Are you sure you know how to use the camera?
Douglas: Yes..ehh what is this for ah! Nevermind I dunno
And hehe yeahh we're girls we just haaaad to take this photo :P
Anyway, school has been wonderful, not absolutely perfect but always promising lots of joy and character-building hoho. The first quartre of my jc life has been filled with all the things that matter: great friends, great company, very enjoyable lessons (I insist Math lectures don't count) and all these diverse experiences that really mean something beyond their novelty factor. Although maybe I do have one tiny... or huge (depending on how/when I look at it)... regret of not having put effort into my academic work. I really don't want to go on and on ad nauseum about how I need to stop taking my education opportunities for granted, about how my current role is fundamentally that of a student, about how much I dislike the slacker that I've become. I guess the reason why I'm always making the same old rants about how behind I am in my work is that I really don't know how to deal with this slacking problem that stealthily snuck into my life post-psle and never went away eversince. It is really... quite bad, for lack of a more powerful and more accurate description. And it is going to become worse because jc work isn't easy and definitely requires studying. Truthfully, I know that my choice to fill up a large portion of my time with what my mum calls "useless things" does place a cap on the extent to which I can realise my potential academically and I wouldn't want to have it any other way because if there was one goal I was determined to keep to at the start of the year, it was to not go through jc as a mugging machine. At the same time, I don't want to swing to the other extreme either (read: screw up a levels and cry) and I ought to treat my position as a student with some respect. It all boils down to self-discipline and yes I have gone through this rhetoric before but this June I am really going to work on recovering some sort of intellectual passion and I will not waste my holidays. I need to get used to the idea of having exams AFTER the holidays. I'll go into Term 3 having metamorphosed from an Ugly Little Slacker to a Beautiful Mugger. Pinky Promise. (I am a little bit scared)
Also, I realise, in very sharp contrast to the last quartre of last year where I had so much time and so little to do, all this while I've been living life without really pausing to do any serious introspection. I've just been doing things in the now and not really thinking (or more like, over-worrying) about why or how or what might happen in the future. Counter-intuitively speaking, it's good because dabbling in existentialist angst and all that can really make a person unnecessarily unhappy. Yeah I know what I am doing and I'm quite happy. :)
This is 13A (without a lot of people but with Mrs Perry)...I love our class, in our blissful little gossip-free bubble.
Claire Tan from Mg, who's also a debator and writes well enough to be "ready for the A Levels!!" lol we're never gonna let her go on that one
Ehh look, our version of a Gossip Girl book cover! AKA Failed Camwhoring (and Cheriel and I have such different noses and mouths and chins, I realise!)
With Lisa the Diva & Xuanwei! :)
Nicholas Cheee, who is an absolute darling and also happens to be a math genius!
Aww they look really happy :D
I was playing with the Macro function and I like this photo a lot! Kinder Joy is also really NOT the same as Kinder Surprise, which had way more chocolate and better toys. Hmph.
Hehe, cacti for Atiqa, Glen and Vic who were all involved in Whose Life Is It Anyway, which was really pretty good. And oh my word hahah I'd never imagine myself saying this but the green cactus is really quite a phallic symbol (perfect for Atiqa!)!
In your face! xD
(The old couple in the background looks quite funny haha)
I *heart* Eden (even though our encounters are often relatively brief but do you remember when we were saigang warriors together for Speech Day 2007!) and Cheriel (Classmate/Pwmate/Chiongingworktogethernearthedeadline-mate...need I say more)!
"Why are you taking a photo of my BOOB?" "I am not! I'm trying to photograph the school badge!" "It is still my boob...I can see the CURVE!" ROFL
With Glenys! :D
Victoria (the bimbotic nurse) delighted by her flowers!
Atiqa, her friend and the Pop-the-cherry thingum (that comes with some form of innuendo, idunnowhat)!
With the Hwachong People (TRAITORS xD)! Aww they all seem to be doing very well and having lots of fun even though they have become part of The Enemy hahaha
The gratuitous dancer camwhoring @ Round 1 of C Dance DSA Auditions x)
R Project! I like this picture :) R-Project was where Claire and I had a COMPLETEFAIL sense of direction and ended up at 33 Mohd Sultan Rd when it was actually at 72-33 Mohd Sultan Rd but we redeemed ourselves afterwards by finding our way to Clarke Quay MRT stations unguided! R-Proj was a good show...some outfits were awesome, some were strange, some models walked really well although some models couldn't and everyone looked really pretty.
With Lisa the designer and Vic the model post-show!
This is Cheryl, one of my humble+talented C Dance seniors and the prettiest J2 ever!
Candice! Tang Guo! :D Haha, in Lisa's words, my "very pretty Chinese Dance friend". Yes Auntie you're very pretty indeed.
Andrea Lim! With her "legs like WOAH" :D
Jo, Claire, Xuanwei, Me haha I have run out of things to say but heartheart
Bella ella ella eh eh!
Claireeeee ♥ (I hope to get to know you better!)
And then we met Sydney Anastasia at the train station (that we got to by ourselves, I must proudly repeat)!
PUFFERFISH :D
Then off I went to the Christian Lacroix exhibition with Andrea
He's a super talented designer who designs for couture, pret-a-porter, theatre and ballet; it was really a visual feast!
And I took some pretty cool photos too hehe
Andrea with the stuff she designed! Haha I bet those dollies are nowhere to be found now.
And it feels really good to camwhore with my foodbuddy/shoppingbuddy after so long!
This is us feeling all content and cheerful after satisfying our Marvellous Cream craving... the ice-cream and waffle bowl is really MARVELLOUS hehe!
A random day after Chinese Dance where I attempted to study with Bea and Bailu! (For some funny reason, I kinda look a little bit like Bea here! We're of the same colour haha!)
The Day Rachel Miao crashed RJ! :D People's reactions were altogether both aww-worthy and hilarious. This was also the day we were freeloaders at RMUN lunch hehh...some things never change, like how Miao and I spend all our time together either stuffing our faces or plotting to stuff our faces!
I LOVE YOU MIAO!
And for old times' sake, Far East Plaza!
Sec 1 days at KFC, Turkish Ice-cream!, Old Chang Kee and Bubble Tea, Chippy's and Shih Lin Chicken, Carl's Jr and being sick of it, the Chicken Rice stall tucked away in a secluded little corner, Tuesdays at Gelare's!!! (just before being late for French), the fake Ramen Place where we had our 315/415 class lunches/dinners, and now there's Slice and that really good wanton mee place which moved over from Heeren's. And how can we forget all the stores with the most bizarre names ever... Fra East and Watts In, yo! I'm an Orchard girl always and forever. :)
And, Special Olympics!
I really like this photo! Haha and I wish the annoying time/date thing would just disappear but I've no idea how to make it go away.
Robyn the Resident Photographer :)
Here, Siying goes, "Wahlauuuu cut me off in the picture!"
Yes this is for you Siyingggg :D
Robyn: Are you sure you know how to use the camera?
Douglas: Yes..ehh what is this for ah! Nevermind I dunno
And hehe yeahh we're girls we just haaaad to take this photo :P