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There is a guy that I like. After two good phone conversations and two amazing dates, I was pretty sure that he was interested in me. So, Sunday night around 8pm I called him. We had date #2 on Thursday. I worked all weekend (Friday, Saturday, and Sunday), and I knew he was working Friday and Saturday. So I thougt Sunday was a safe time to talk. I like talking to him. Anyway, long story short, I was on call this weekend and our phone call only lasted 5 minutes because I got called away. I sent him a text to apologize that I had to go so quickly, and that I would like to hang out this week, and for him to let me know. NO RESPONSE. It's Thursday. I'm insecure today because I got word that I'm allowed a +1 at my friend's wedding on July 3rd. No, I'm not expecting this guy to be my new boyfriend and go to a wedding with me...although it'd be awesome if the stars aligned in such a way. I'm just saying that it's bothering me that I feel like a crazy stalker girl for liking him so much so quickly and feeling like I have no control over any of this. I've almost called him 3 times this week. But I restrained. Why should I always be the one to call? And if he really liked me, wouldn't he make an effort to call me? Maybe this is karma's way of saying I should have been up front with the guy I went on a date with a few weeks ago...who keeps texting me. But didn't that cancel out the whole "I'm not going to talk to you any more because you won't sleep with me" crap I put up with earlier too?! Why is this freaking world so complicated? Why doesn't the nice, smart, educated, respectful, adorable, interesting guy call back? Maybe he's been really busy. Oh, eff that. I am a really busy person but I somehow find the time to call people and keep in touch. I just have to figure out if and when there is an appropriate time to call him. I would like to see him again and say, "hey, I like you. What are your thoughts on the subject?" Maybe he's just looking for a friendship first. THEN WHY DID YOU KISS ME LAST WEEK? I'm sorry, I may have made out with my fair share of guys I met in bars, but naive me always thought they'd call. And I made out with them because they had someredeeming, exciting qualites and that I wanted to get to know later...soberly. Point being, I try not to kiss people without feeling, without the intention of wanting to see them again. Oh, frustration. I think I should just go get in bed and read my trouble away...