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I've been thinking a lot about relationships recently, specifically about what I want. I'm reading a book about the hook-up culture of our generation, and it's fascinating...probably because I know so much of what it says is true. I've fallen victim to it on occassion myself, but nothing positive really, truly ever results--except a good story or two. So, now here I am at 22 years old, in graduate school, and my school and professional life are going exactly according to plan. My family is doing well, all healthy and well, and I've got a great network of friends both within San Diego and all over the country. I'm at the top of my game. Except, there is still that one little piece that is missing. I've never been in a relationship. I don't really date guys, thus making it hard to even think about a relationship. But I do think about it. I think about committment and having someone to share my life with. I imagine an educated, chivlarous guy that opens doors for me and can't help but staring. I dream about passion and a connection with someone that isn't my best girl friends. At 18 years old and in my freshman year of college, my friends told me that I would fall in love in grad school and ultimately be the first to get married. I wouldn't date around much because when I found someone that was finally worth my time to be in a serious relationship, he would be The One. This theory eased me through college, believing that I could make-out with someone here or there, just for fun. I always hoped he'd call the next day, but it never happened. And so I moved on. But now I'm thinking about how I'm almost done with my first year of gradaute school and I'm ready for a new experience, one I've never had. Yesterday, Nicole told me I make a great boyfriend because I opened the door for her, I called when I say I will, and I take care of her. It was funny because we joke that I'm her substitute boyfriend since she is in a somewhat long-distance relationship. But what about me? I'm tired of being the friend and want to be a girlfriend, or at least go out on a date or two. I know I'm asking for a fairy tale, but I'm not about to settle. I know it will come someday, I just hope it is sooner rather than later.
On that note, I started thinking about this because of Keith Urban's song, "Kiss a Girl."
But the night is young,
And it's been a while.
And she broke my heart,
Broke it right in two.
And it's fixing time,
But I'm feeling like I'm finally ready to
Find, find somebody new.
I wanna kiss a girl,
I wanna hold her tight,
And maybe make a little magic in the moonlight.
Don't wanna go too far
Just to take it slow,
But I shouldn't be lonely in this big ol' world.
I wanna kiss a girl.
It's that moment when
You start closing in.
First you're holding back,
Then surrendering.
It can start a fire,
Light up the sky.
Such a simple thing,
Do you wanna try?
Are you ready to
Say goodbye
To all these blues?
I wanna kiss a girl,
I wanna hold her tight,
And maybe make a little magic in the moonlight.
Don't wanna go too far
Just to take it slow,
But I shouldn't be lonely in this big ol' world.
I wanna kiss a girl.
'Cause, baby, tonight
It could turn into the rest of our lives.
Oh yeah.
Are you ready?
(Are you ready?)
Are you ready
(Are you ready)
To cross that line?
Put your lips on mine.
Put your lips on mine, baby.
Do you wanna try?
Are you ready to
Say goodbye
To all these blues?
I wanna kiss a girl,
I wanna hold her tight,
And maybe make a little magic, baby.
Don't wanna go too far
Just to take it slow,
I don't want to be lonely,
I shouldn't be lonely.
I wanna kiss a girl,
I wanna hold her tight,
And maybe make a little magic in the moonlight.
Don't wanna go too far
Just to take it slow,
But I shouldn't be lonely in this big ol' world.
I wanna kiss a girl.
I said I wanna kiss a girl.
Whoa-ho whoa-ho
I wanna kiss a girl.
I wanna hold her tight,
I wanna make a little magic
Out under the moonlight.
Oooh I wanna kiss her now.
I don't want to kiss a girl, but I want a boy to think about me in that way. :) I guess I can dream for a little bit longer.