at unrest and silver lining avenue
My heart is at unrest....
I just want someone to be close with again.
Someone to occasionally wake up to. that was sober the night before.
SVC is fun...but thats enough guys...
And every time i feel like im getting closer to what i wanted....both ends slip out from underneath me.
Someone was supposed to visit for new years...but i think they assume it'd be about sex. which it wasn't in the first place...but clearly I'm a guy so it must be all i think about.
Honestly I dont think about it as much as those statistics say.
I love music. and I love my friends. and sometimes even my job.
I just want someone to share the time inbetween with.
I love having someone to play music for.
when theres no one around... it doesn't feel right. ..doesnt feel like it should.
Theres no one i can make smile...there's no one to smile for...
I was in control of my emotions for a little while...bout 9days...
and just a few words through me from that train.
and I'm not giving you back your heart if your not sending mine back!
ilyjb
and i absolutly hate longing. but its in me again...
and we both have lives...you more so than me, but when our lives start to be real we lose each other and i hate that. People walk by and I compare them to you or notice something about them that reminds me of you.
And I thought i wasn't thinking about you all the time..aye. I left so long ago..
8months and 10days ago..11days if u count the last time i saw YOU. 29hours flying and wishing you had been with me.
I wish i could let go of your heart and let it find me later when we can live in the same state again.... but I am one stubborn hearted person.
The silver lining is that no matter what we can still talk. and do our best to be in each others lives.
so.. More letters :-) and more packages .
Cause there's no obstacle I let get in my way...cept death.
But You can not die without first living , and To die loved is to have lived.
So i will let you die. because I love you.
I just want someone to be close with again.
Someone to occasionally wake up to. that was sober the night before.
SVC is fun...but thats enough guys...
And every time i feel like im getting closer to what i wanted....both ends slip out from underneath me.
Someone was supposed to visit for new years...but i think they assume it'd be about sex. which it wasn't in the first place...but clearly I'm a guy so it must be all i think about.
Honestly I dont think about it as much as those statistics say.
I love music. and I love my friends. and sometimes even my job.
I just want someone to share the time inbetween with.
I love having someone to play music for.
when theres no one around... it doesn't feel right. ..doesnt feel like it should.
Theres no one i can make smile...there's no one to smile for...
I was in control of my emotions for a little while...bout 9days...
and just a few words through me from that train.
and I'm not giving you back your heart if your not sending mine back!
ilyjb
and i absolutly hate longing. but its in me again...
and we both have lives...you more so than me, but when our lives start to be real we lose each other and i hate that. People walk by and I compare them to you or notice something about them that reminds me of you.
And I thought i wasn't thinking about you all the time..aye. I left so long ago..
8months and 10days ago..11days if u count the last time i saw YOU. 29hours flying and wishing you had been with me.
I wish i could let go of your heart and let it find me later when we can live in the same state again.... but I am one stubborn hearted person.
The silver lining is that no matter what we can still talk. and do our best to be in each others lives.
so.. More letters :-) and more packages .
Cause there's no obstacle I let get in my way...cept death.
But You can not die without first living , and To die loved is to have lived.
So i will let you die. because I love you.