Is it impossible for me to do anything right?

[theotherbassist]

I've quit my job , I've paid for things, I've resolved fights and or misunderstandings. My efforsts in makeing life better for every one around me dont seem to do much. Christmas morning, there was a fight because people cant control them selvs not to yell at people who get angry quick. That doesnt specify anyone becasue it pertains to everyone envolved in that part of it. I didnt have anything to say i had no clue what to do with them. thankgod Mike was here, Angels older bro, to resolve and help out. No one seems to know when to shut up and stop yelling pointless crap. To stop carrying on about things and swallow their pride and let things go. To just drop them and move on. Its like me with my dad. I dropped it and left califronia. Twice. once because of my mother and her "BF" and the other because of my dad. Im not saying Anyone should leave this house, but they all need a brake from eachother. I love Angelmarie with all my heart, but now she needs her independence and tends to block me out in an awful way. OR she tests me... I dont know. Dismorning we woke up very combfortable and cuddlying in bed. she got up to take a shower and her mom says" wait a while your father has to take one he's going to work soon" Im paraphrazing because i didnt hear much... Angel replys with I'll only be 10 mins and back and forth they go. Her and her mom dont get along very well and havnt in a long time. Her mom's a certified pshyco. Angel is slowing but unknowingly following her footsteps i believe. It scaers me becasue to turn into that so young isnt a good thing. Her mother has her reasons and damn good ones for being so mental. She should be able to deal with it but long term affects have left her BOTZO. Angel just has to deal with her being botzo. not that its a small thing to deal with. I cant stand her mother either. I do anything i can for Angel just to see her smile. We barely really get to talk anymore. I talked to her more when i was working then when she is. It freaks me out how she seems to be slipping away. I know she said it in her lj, but i noticed it before i read it. I just want her to be happy. Angel has her right to take a shower. And dismorning they could have cleaned the catbox after her shower. they really could have. her mom doesnt have to be a bitch when she opens her mouth everyday. Angel didnt need to go off screaming thou and just accept that her mother doesnt ever change or learn from her bitchyness.

She wants to go, I have to let her go. (she knows what i mean) not breaking up or anything but ...
I've done as much as i possibly could.
and ive made my fair share of mistakes
or more. and were still here
but how do i help things and help her
or help US. I never want the worst to happen.
I just would like to see her smile a lil more often.