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I can't be happy because i fear for being hurt
I'm in a relationship but in my head and when I people ask I say I'm seeing this girl I never use the word girlfriend. My mind will not allow it because honestly I don't think my mind and heart want a relationship for one simple reason, pain.
It's not that I don't like her or whatever. She's amazing, beautiful, just the complete package any guy would want and more. But my heart doesn't want to ache anymore than it does now...
I'm not sure how to proceed
I'm in a relationship but in my head and when I people ask I say I'm seeing this girl I never use the word girlfriend. My mind will not allow it because honestly I don't think my mind and heart want a relationship for one simple reason, pain.
It's not that I don't like her or whatever. She's amazing, beautiful, just the complete package any guy would want and more. But my heart doesn't want to ache anymore than it does now...
I'm not sure how to proceed