Day 5
Should be getting a call today about how many of our fertilized eggs made it to blastocyst. I’m hoping all 9 did. Seems like most people get at least 50% drop off but I’ve seen a few people who got all or almost all of their fertilized to blast. I hope we’re lucky. I’m also so worried that pgt will knock out a bunch of them. I’ve got my heart really set on a girl which I know is stupid, if we weren’t doing ivf I wouldn’t even know. And of course I’d be thrilled to just get any baby. But I had this whole plan to have a girl first and freeze embryos for later when we wanted to have a boy and I’m just worried that plan won’t work out. Serves me right for counting my chickens before they hatch, literally.
I’m also sick of people saying “it only takes one!” Because it’s a really stupid thing to say. It only takes one if one takes, but there’s a good chance it won’t. Transfers fail all the time. So if we wind up with only one embryo and transfer it and it fails or miscarries, we have to do another retrieval. I know people mean well and are trying to be positive but it’s just not helpful. It basically makes me feel like I should feel bad for hoping we get more.
I just hope we get like 4. I’d be happy with 4.
I also think if we only get one and get pregnant I would probably just do another ivf cycle in the future. I was hoping to get some to freeze and just do a transfer in a few years but if that doesn’t happen I think we can still elect to just do ivf again. I know people say it’s easier to get pregnant the second time and maybe it would be but I really don’t want to waste time if it isn’t.
I guess we’ll just have to see what happens. I’m just not good at waiting. I like having a plan in case things don’t work out.