I haven't updated this shit in over a year.
Well life is good I guess. Besides the fact of being completely ruined by a girl that i thought was everything to me. I've listened to every sad emo song in hopes that it will make me feel better but if anything. It just made her harder to forget due to the fact that every song I painted my own picture of our demise in my head. Needless to say i didn't handle the situation too well. I think being left by somebody for someone else is the worst thing you can do to someone. I now know the true meaning of Karma. To all I've hurt offended treated like shit or pretty much did anything wrong to I am so sorry. So that's enough of that i have a new girlfriend and Her name is Virginia. She's amazing and everything I could ask for and more. So I guess I'm happy. Bills stress me out and keeping the girlfriend happy as well can be stressful. I wish i could live somebody else's life for a week or so to maybe somehow get a mental break. The city is cool a little too much like Seattle though. Fuck gloomy towns they suck the joy out of situation so very easily. I am looking forward to getting back on the road again. Touring is what keeps me sane. New towns and new people where nobody knows your name. It's a fresh start everyday it's a life i wish I could lead. I am now just trying to make things better with people I have hurt in the past. i look at myself and feel disgusted knowing the pain I've inflicted on certain people and questioning how i could never feel any sort of remorse in the process. I need to make thing right not only for them but for myself. That's the worst seeing somebody you know who you could actually call a friend at one time and having nothing to say because you either hurt them or somebody close to them. Moving away has helped me see my flaws and this next year I'm going to try and change them without changing my beliefs just the ugly side that can and has been me. I leave this post on this note. Until we meet again livejournal.