11 weeks
Tonight I will get my 12th weekly shot of testosterone. I am happy about this and about how everything is going.
I have grown out a little goatee of chin pubes. They are medium bad/medium good. I'd like to have a nice full beard some day, but I will also settle for thick sideburns.
Every body part is noticeably bigger with the exception of my ass and hips. My arms are like rocks, especially my forearms. I am lifting 3 days week- concentrating on arms and shoulders and chest. I got a weight bench for Xmas but have so far not accumulated any weights or a bar to do the actual weightlifting. I can be patient about this.
My legs feel big and my feet look chunky. My belly is enormous, but I kind of dig it for the teddy bear factor. My chest hair now connects to the hair on my stomach and my upper arms are harrier too. My face has thickened. So, basically, I'm big and hairy, ha!
I haven't been very moody. The only thing is that the day before my shot my body feels very achy/crampy.
This transition is going well socially. My dad has come around and hardly anyone makes the name mistake, even at work. Last week I had some serious uneasiness about being social, especially when we went to Iowa. I have this new shyness that I have never experienced before and I do not like it. I think that a legal name change may make this better- I won't feel like I need an excuse ready every time I use my debit card or go to the bank or doctor or liquor store. I just feel anxious about getting called out on this stuff and would much rather avoid any confrontation over it.
My sex drive is actually down right now. I'm not sure if it is connected to this newfound insecurity, but I wouldn't be surprised that the anxiety from that is spilling over onto other things. Mostly though, I just feel too tired to initiate and sometimes find myself just wanting an HJ right before bed and that's it. I would of course reciprocate with a non physically exerting activity of her choosing.
Fatigue. I feel fatigued. Maybe my shot tonight will help. It is too bad that my energy peaks on the days/nights when M. has to work. I should move my shot to Mondays.
I have grown out a little goatee of chin pubes. They are medium bad/medium good. I'd like to have a nice full beard some day, but I will also settle for thick sideburns.
Every body part is noticeably bigger with the exception of my ass and hips. My arms are like rocks, especially my forearms. I am lifting 3 days week- concentrating on arms and shoulders and chest. I got a weight bench for Xmas but have so far not accumulated any weights or a bar to do the actual weightlifting. I can be patient about this.
My legs feel big and my feet look chunky. My belly is enormous, but I kind of dig it for the teddy bear factor. My chest hair now connects to the hair on my stomach and my upper arms are harrier too. My face has thickened. So, basically, I'm big and hairy, ha!
I haven't been very moody. The only thing is that the day before my shot my body feels very achy/crampy.
This transition is going well socially. My dad has come around and hardly anyone makes the name mistake, even at work. Last week I had some serious uneasiness about being social, especially when we went to Iowa. I have this new shyness that I have never experienced before and I do not like it. I think that a legal name change may make this better- I won't feel like I need an excuse ready every time I use my debit card or go to the bank or doctor or liquor store. I just feel anxious about getting called out on this stuff and would much rather avoid any confrontation over it.
My sex drive is actually down right now. I'm not sure if it is connected to this newfound insecurity, but I wouldn't be surprised that the anxiety from that is spilling over onto other things. Mostly though, I just feel too tired to initiate and sometimes find myself just wanting an HJ right before bed and that's it. I would of course reciprocate with a non physically exerting activity of her choosing.
Fatigue. I feel fatigued. Maybe my shot tonight will help. It is too bad that my energy peaks on the days/nights when M. has to work. I should move my shot to Mondays.