5 1/2 weeks on T
It's been too long in between posts! Seriously, how am I going to keep up with posting?
This has been my transition journal, and for the most part it is all pre-transition posts.
So, to catch you up:
I'm now 5.5 weeks on T. Once I made the decision to go full steam ahead, the T came easily, for the most part.
I am out to all of my friends and family and they are using and getting used to my new name.
Legally changing my name is expensive! As some of you know. I've got the paperwork ready, just gotta find some funds. I'll probably wait until after Xmas to proceed with that.
I told my manager at work about my goals in October. Wednesday, this week, he and our HR dept. will make the announcement to my coworkers and then in one week, my name change will be official company wide. These are huge tremendous steps in my life right now. Things are going very smoothly. I haven't run into any opposition- which is why I was surprised when watching an mtv show the other day that parents are easily shocked by bisexuality...really, how ten years ago.
I have been working out, lifting weights. I want to be huge! The T is definitely facilitating this. Although for the last two days, my forearms and hands have been really fatigued...writing more than a few words at a time is quite painful and crampy. I'm wondering if it is from working out? or something associated with potassium? Has anyone else experienced this?
I haven't noticed any huge changes, some growth in the anatomy dept., and my voice is definitely changing, it isn't really lower, but the high range is gone. I'm getting a little bit squeaky here and there which is pretty funny.
I don't have a huge amount of self confidence right now, like I just don't feel like going out and about, I'd rather stay in. I believe this is temporary and kind of along the lines of being an awkward teenage boy. I really do feel like I need to just ride this out and let my body do what it's doing. I feel totally weird sometimes, disconnected. I apologize to my friends and Michele if I've been weird and distant- I'm trying to stay very present through all of this, but it is very hard.
I know that the biggest changes are yet to come so I'd like to stay ahead of this, at least right now in the early phases of testosterone. My arms are killing me so I'm going to end this post now.
Wish me luck for Wed.
Later, friends.
This has been my transition journal, and for the most part it is all pre-transition posts.
So, to catch you up:
I'm now 5.5 weeks on T. Once I made the decision to go full steam ahead, the T came easily, for the most part.
I am out to all of my friends and family and they are using and getting used to my new name.
Legally changing my name is expensive! As some of you know. I've got the paperwork ready, just gotta find some funds. I'll probably wait until after Xmas to proceed with that.
I told my manager at work about my goals in October. Wednesday, this week, he and our HR dept. will make the announcement to my coworkers and then in one week, my name change will be official company wide. These are huge tremendous steps in my life right now. Things are going very smoothly. I haven't run into any opposition- which is why I was surprised when watching an mtv show the other day that parents are easily shocked by bisexuality...really, how ten years ago.
I have been working out, lifting weights. I want to be huge! The T is definitely facilitating this. Although for the last two days, my forearms and hands have been really fatigued...writing more than a few words at a time is quite painful and crampy. I'm wondering if it is from working out? or something associated with potassium? Has anyone else experienced this?
I haven't noticed any huge changes, some growth in the anatomy dept., and my voice is definitely changing, it isn't really lower, but the high range is gone. I'm getting a little bit squeaky here and there which is pretty funny.
I don't have a huge amount of self confidence right now, like I just don't feel like going out and about, I'd rather stay in. I believe this is temporary and kind of along the lines of being an awkward teenage boy. I really do feel like I need to just ride this out and let my body do what it's doing. I feel totally weird sometimes, disconnected. I apologize to my friends and Michele if I've been weird and distant- I'm trying to stay very present through all of this, but it is very hard.
I know that the biggest changes are yet to come so I'd like to stay ahead of this, at least right now in the early phases of testosterone. My arms are killing me so I'm going to end this post now.
Wish me luck for Wed.
Later, friends.