For a minute there, I lost myself
Forgive me for the horridly cliched title. It's kind of relevant, so humor me, okay?
I have not been myself lately. I've been down for the past few months. I've made some poor decisions, namely pursuing females and spending too much money pursuing said females. I finally realized that since Meagan and I broke up I've been lonely. These mistakes that I've made, they are manifestations of that loneliness. I've been latching onto girls that show me even the smallest bit of attention, only to realize later that I didn't even like them that much. I liked that they liked me. I liked that someone would be interested in me. These are the signs of someone truly pathetic.
The good news is that I've learned from these mistakes. I've snapped back to reality. I know better now who I am and what I need out of someone I date.
So, here's the gameplan:
I'm going to spend the next few months really getting in tune with myself.
I'm going to get my body right (I've gained 30 pounds this year. Gross.)
I'm going to be moving towards a vegan diet and an exercise program with lots of running and biking, some strength training for balance, yoga, and tai chi.
I'm going to get my mind right - namely I need to figure out who I am and be confident in that.
Once I'm back in shape and confident in who I am, then I'm really going to start putting myself out there. I will try and participate in school more and meet people. I will try online dating. Whatever works to open me up a little bit.
I am also going to try and blog more. Either here or on a separate blog to track my progress. Keep your ear to the ground about that.
I have not been myself lately. I've been down for the past few months. I've made some poor decisions, namely pursuing females and spending too much money pursuing said females. I finally realized that since Meagan and I broke up I've been lonely. These mistakes that I've made, they are manifestations of that loneliness. I've been latching onto girls that show me even the smallest bit of attention, only to realize later that I didn't even like them that much. I liked that they liked me. I liked that someone would be interested in me. These are the signs of someone truly pathetic.
The good news is that I've learned from these mistakes. I've snapped back to reality. I know better now who I am and what I need out of someone I date.
So, here's the gameplan:
I'm going to spend the next few months really getting in tune with myself.
I'm going to get my body right (I've gained 30 pounds this year. Gross.)
I'm going to be moving towards a vegan diet and an exercise program with lots of running and biking, some strength training for balance, yoga, and tai chi.
I'm going to get my mind right - namely I need to figure out who I am and be confident in that.
Once I'm back in shape and confident in who I am, then I'm really going to start putting myself out there. I will try and participate in school more and meet people. I will try online dating. Whatever works to open me up a little bit.
I am also going to try and blog more. Either here or on a separate blog to track my progress. Keep your ear to the ground about that.