Another day, another sleepy night

[theninjacowboy]

I've come to the conclusion that I have many acquaintances but few friends. I feel that I cannot trust people due to the paranoia instilled on me by a former friend. The kind of former friend who screws you over and then tries to kill your reputation. I try to act like I don't care, but I do. I do care and I always will care. I was an idiot to

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[paperispatient]

I'll be your friend of any day. Everyone has been hurt before, and whether they admit it or not everyone shares your paranoia; you have to conquer it, though. Fuck the paranoia; I figure if you open yourself up enough to people it eventually must pay off.

[theninjacowboy]

I thank you for that. Unfortunately, I must say that if you open yourself up to too many people, wouldn't that cause you more pain? Also, there are things I do not wish for people to know that I must state in order for the paranoia to disperse. This information tends to be very detrimental to people's view of me. I've spent a long time trying to build people's view of me. I do not like my work going down the drain. Then again, if I have to work to create a personality that is not my true self, could I really be considered a friend as well? Too many questions, not enough answers.