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so val and i were talking today about one of the things no one predicts about going to school on the east coast: this weird three and a half month long period called summer when you are completely disconnected from your life at school. i have friends who live in jersy and on long island and they will see each other next weekend for some big party in the city, but i will see no one i go to school with until september. the closest people,other than monica and nima, live in la and san franscisco. i am so overwhelmed- how am i expected to live these two lives?
portland life is very different than new york life. i have a different basic lifestyle, different friends, different ways of dealing with things that happen, and different things that happen. there are obviously some people- my parents, my sister, ben, deni, et cetera, who sort of exist in both lives, but most people at schoold ont know all that much about my life here and vice versa, just because you cant tell stuff like that. its so bizarre telling people here little stories and having them say, "oh you're so into him", or "oh wow that sounds crazy" and in some ways its nice that you're telling them and they can relate but at the same time its like you're narrating in the third person- situations are so different at school, and life is different, and even though i'm the same person, a lot of crucial bits get lost in translation.
its so weird the other way too. i mean, you spend literally every waking hour with friends at school, more than you ever did in portland. you become so close and so intimate and then all of a sudden, boom! goodbye, i wont see you for three and a half months. i dont know how people leave significant others.
i suppose in some ways its coool and exciting to have this double life, but right now its a bit disorienting.
thoughts?
it reminds me of that savage garden song santa monica.
portland life is very different than new york life. i have a different basic lifestyle, different friends, different ways of dealing with things that happen, and different things that happen. there are obviously some people- my parents, my sister, ben, deni, et cetera, who sort of exist in both lives, but most people at schoold ont know all that much about my life here and vice versa, just because you cant tell stuff like that. its so bizarre telling people here little stories and having them say, "oh you're so into him", or "oh wow that sounds crazy" and in some ways its nice that you're telling them and they can relate but at the same time its like you're narrating in the third person- situations are so different at school, and life is different, and even though i'm the same person, a lot of crucial bits get lost in translation.
its so weird the other way too. i mean, you spend literally every waking hour with friends at school, more than you ever did in portland. you become so close and so intimate and then all of a sudden, boom! goodbye, i wont see you for three and a half months. i dont know how people leave significant others.
i suppose in some ways its coool and exciting to have this double life, but right now its a bit disorienting.
thoughts?
it reminds me of that savage garden song santa monica.