Break.

[themadmyth]

I feel haggard.  I've spent the last few weeks picking up hours at work, going back and forth between swing shift and graveyard without consecutive days off.  The last two that I had were spent at the dentist getting a wisdom tooth surgically extracted from inside of my jaw, and the rest was spent in a medicine sleep.

I am trying to part from the medication I am given for it, but by the end of the day, it feels like my head has been hit with a brick, and I cave.  Lately, I am constantly tired, feel weak, and have nausea as part of the side effects.  My legs struggle when biking and I have been taking the max home after my shifts because of this.

I have this Friday and Saturday off.  It wasn't supposed to be this way, just another single day off, but there was a trade.  I am relieved for it, because I don't think I'd make it.  My body is in serious need of rest and rejuvination. I can feel it breaking down under the medicine and under the stress.  I have a sinus infection that refuses to part ways.

So, this weekend is about the bliss of nothingness.  I have two days off, one one, two off again.

I am going to start by letting my body rest Friday. Do not push self to do chores or run errands.  I will stay home and rest.  Lie in my bed and listen to meditative music and eat soup and drink tons of water.

It needs to be done.

I won't make specific plans for the rest.  All I know is that at some point, acupuncture needs to be done, and at another, I need to return to yoga.  But my body needs some help.  My heart needs some help.

But for now, work.  I am so fucking sick of it.