catching up
so, looking back at my journal i haven't posted anything before yesterday in over a year. and almost 6 months before that until you find any kind of regular activity.
not sure i could even start to cover all that has happened since then so in the interest of not hurting my tired brain to much I'll just skip it all and go to where i am now, (sorry, of you missed a chapter of my life then i guess you missed it. should have been there, I'm sure it was a blast)
so I'm in Ohio, finally, not that i ever had any interest in moving to Ohio but after close to 7 years of trying to get away i finally made it out of south fl. i don't regret it taking so long, i would have never met most of you if i had left when i first wanted to. but all mediocre things must end.
Ohio isn't bad, job situation is about the same, gas prices are about 20 cents cheaper on average but cigarettes are about 20 cents more so that balances out. heres the fun part though, currently looking at a 3 bedroom hours in a good neighborhood, 2 stories, yes a HOUSE for rent, with a yard and everything. this is where i get to laugh at everyone still in fl, rent is on 660 a month. HA!
im already getting used to the cold, i grew up in this weather so i knew it wouldn't take long for me to re-acclimate myself. i was outside with my sleeves rolled up and no coat in 25 degree weather today, felt amazing.
for those of you that don't know just over a year ago i stopped being single again, my girl is great, her name is k-la and things suck right now cause she is still in fl, but I'm coming down to get her the first of march, and weather she likes it or not shes coming back up here with me, hehe.
but yeah things are good on that front, we were together for 8 months before i moved with very little in the way of problems, not saying things were honey and roses but we made it through the rough spots with very little trouble, both of us talking and compromising. its a new feeling to be in a relationship that works, not one that is hell or amazingly filled with obsession, but where we can be around each other and just be happy even if we aren't getting along at the moment.
so yeah, i guess thats about it. dunno, its no like the move made tings amazingly easy or anything but it does seem to have given me some hope again. I'm tired of living the life of a teenager, paycheck to paycheck, always worried about how things are going to work out. i know I'll never live my parents life. you know house and kids and tv and a dog and every day just blah blah blah.... but i do find myself craving the stability, the knowledge of having money saved for emergencies and a good job and a roof over my head that i don't have to worry about expiring at the end of the month. I'm sure ill find a middle ground somewhere, after all thats what i do isn't it? find ways to exist in both extremes at once? lets all cross our fingers and hope that my magic works again cause honestly if i fail one more time trying to fix my life I'll probably give up... very tired of the failing, very very tired....
anyway, goodnight everybody... i think i just depressed myself.
sorry.
-j
not sure i could even start to cover all that has happened since then so in the interest of not hurting my tired brain to much I'll just skip it all and go to where i am now, (sorry, of you missed a chapter of my life then i guess you missed it. should have been there, I'm sure it was a blast)
so I'm in Ohio, finally, not that i ever had any interest in moving to Ohio but after close to 7 years of trying to get away i finally made it out of south fl. i don't regret it taking so long, i would have never met most of you if i had left when i first wanted to. but all mediocre things must end.
Ohio isn't bad, job situation is about the same, gas prices are about 20 cents cheaper on average but cigarettes are about 20 cents more so that balances out. heres the fun part though, currently looking at a 3 bedroom hours in a good neighborhood, 2 stories, yes a HOUSE for rent, with a yard and everything. this is where i get to laugh at everyone still in fl, rent is on 660 a month. HA!
im already getting used to the cold, i grew up in this weather so i knew it wouldn't take long for me to re-acclimate myself. i was outside with my sleeves rolled up and no coat in 25 degree weather today, felt amazing.
for those of you that don't know just over a year ago i stopped being single again, my girl is great, her name is k-la and things suck right now cause she is still in fl, but I'm coming down to get her the first of march, and weather she likes it or not shes coming back up here with me, hehe.
but yeah things are good on that front, we were together for 8 months before i moved with very little in the way of problems, not saying things were honey and roses but we made it through the rough spots with very little trouble, both of us talking and compromising. its a new feeling to be in a relationship that works, not one that is hell or amazingly filled with obsession, but where we can be around each other and just be happy even if we aren't getting along at the moment.
so yeah, i guess thats about it. dunno, its no like the move made tings amazingly easy or anything but it does seem to have given me some hope again. I'm tired of living the life of a teenager, paycheck to paycheck, always worried about how things are going to work out. i know I'll never live my parents life. you know house and kids and tv and a dog and every day just blah blah blah.... but i do find myself craving the stability, the knowledge of having money saved for emergencies and a good job and a roof over my head that i don't have to worry about expiring at the end of the month. I'm sure ill find a middle ground somewhere, after all thats what i do isn't it? find ways to exist in both extremes at once? lets all cross our fingers and hope that my magic works again cause honestly if i fail one more time trying to fix my life I'll probably give up... very tired of the failing, very very tired....
anyway, goodnight everybody... i think i just depressed myself.
sorry.
-j