...popular mechanics for lovers could really help me now...
OH WOW have i missed a FREAKING LIFETIME of important events. i mean, i know i was in the capital of boredom for two weeks, but still. combined with the fact that i'll continue to be cooped up for possibly a million years while crazy events continue to occur (without me) makes me want to jump out a window.
( because i enjoy being part of the action, because i'm an attention-starved loser? perhaps. )
and also, thanks to some people being...normal and not a freak like myself? (any idea what i'm talking about??) i'm just even more stressed than ever. first of all because my grounding for life, second of all because my confusion of the century, third of all because of my lack of defense, fourth of all because of my crazy scaredness, fifth of all because of my stupidness or cluelessness or just not-knowing-ness, sixth of all...i mean, i could go on forever and it would make no sense all the same, but basically, it just changed everything for me. even though no one else will even think twice. because, i mean, when you go all the way back, this is the whole reason my life is currently ruined.
GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD FREAKING MAN.
i'll fill out my brand new calender with important dates and maybe i'll relax a little. and maybe i'll talk to my parents a little. maybe.
(( well i'm a wreck,
i really can't explain it, but i
i hear the music when i look at you
orchestrating the song to accomodate the moment
well, i'm so in love with you ))
^^ see...for the fine members of mae, i'm sure this is like cool and romantic, but i just noticed, i've been doing the same thing, you know, having a song for every moment like its a scene in a movie, since i was like five. i've just realized that this is probably not normal.