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[thelovepatrol]

My emotions have hit rock bottom.
i have seriously considered alot of bad things.
i have considered checking myself in.
i am seriously though of killing myself,
i have seriously considered alot of things.
i have hit rock bottom, and my lifestyle isn't helping either.
i am in that lifestyle of where i am doing my body alot of harm just to make me feel better.
i feel lost.
i need someeone to be here to hold my hand.
to tell me every morning when i wake up that, 
today will be alright and there is nothing to worry about.
my freinds don't understand what is the deal with me
school has always been hard for me.
i have no motivation, 
no self confidence.
no self anything.
it all stems back to the bullying in elementry school and middle school
all of which no one understands.
and its comming down to the point of no return.
i want to move away
i want to be with her
but it is impossible right now.
all i want is to hold your hand,
to hug you everynight before you go to bed.
to bee there on your graduation day, your wedding day, your whatever day.
fuck.