yes, this is going to be a rant.
my mother!
wow. this woman, is truly out of her mind! oh how nice, she just sent me a text calling me an asshole, fantastic... anytime we do talk she encourages me to open up...im such a closed off person and she digs to bring me out. but ya know? the moment i open up to her, show any emotion, it gets dumped on and i'm scum for being upset about it! i dont understand this at all... my god.. she's called me a coward and an asshole in the last three texts.
some people baffle me... why is it that the people i should be able to rely on or open up to fail me? its been a very rough couple years... had a terrible break up with my first g/f, got into an abusive, destructive relationship with another girl which left me stranded in a state i was unfamiliar with, lost my ID and ss card twice, tried to be independent and move out on my own, without relying on others and failed in that i could not find another job, then lost my -best- friend in a horrible way... the girl wont even talk to me any more... said she lost all respect for me. how do you fight that? through that i became homeless and had to once again come crawling back to colorado... so im picking myself up again, like i do, healing and being positive..
i hate that this post is so negative but man, my own mom? i know i have done a lot of wrong but i was pretty sure i already paid the price for that, ya know? we aren't all that close but she is sure to remind me that she 'loves me' and anything i need i can 'come to her'. but ya know what? she has really proven herself a liar as of late..
oh man...i dont mean to be so harsh, but my feelings are rather hurt. it would be different if i had done something wrong, been a jerk, or something, but i havent..
*shrugs* what can you do?
I dunno quite what to do about my mom right now, but i really just wanna break from talking to her...
wow. this woman, is truly out of her mind! oh how nice, she just sent me a text calling me an asshole, fantastic... anytime we do talk she encourages me to open up...im such a closed off person and she digs to bring me out. but ya know? the moment i open up to her, show any emotion, it gets dumped on and i'm scum for being upset about it! i dont understand this at all... my god.. she's called me a coward and an asshole in the last three texts.
some people baffle me... why is it that the people i should be able to rely on or open up to fail me? its been a very rough couple years... had a terrible break up with my first g/f, got into an abusive, destructive relationship with another girl which left me stranded in a state i was unfamiliar with, lost my ID and ss card twice, tried to be independent and move out on my own, without relying on others and failed in that i could not find another job, then lost my -best- friend in a horrible way... the girl wont even talk to me any more... said she lost all respect for me. how do you fight that? through that i became homeless and had to once again come crawling back to colorado... so im picking myself up again, like i do, healing and being positive..
i hate that this post is so negative but man, my own mom? i know i have done a lot of wrong but i was pretty sure i already paid the price for that, ya know? we aren't all that close but she is sure to remind me that she 'loves me' and anything i need i can 'come to her'. but ya know what? she has really proven herself a liar as of late..
oh man...i dont mean to be so harsh, but my feelings are rather hurt. it would be different if i had done something wrong, been a jerk, or something, but i havent..
*shrugs* what can you do?
I dunno quite what to do about my mom right now, but i really just wanna break from talking to her...