im glad, babe. things are shitty for me right now, and a lot of people i know, so its good to hear that SOMEONE has things going right. :] i miss colorado like crazy.
i was so glad to be home to see emily, and andie//sarah, and her parents, but now its just...i don't have anything to distract me. i wish i had had the money and stuff to come home for the funeral and go back, but with only a week left, it was pointless... however, now im stuck at home and i've got no job to spend my hours on (or fights with erik to distract me...hah.)
speaking of, i wrote him a lovely email that summed up everything i told yall. that i know i said shit, but im only 19 and i just lost a friend, so i get some fucking leeway. i told him not to bother replying if he was going to bitch, but save the email he wrote for two months from now when i don't have two funerals to go to. he read it and didnt respond.
i called him yesterday. i don't know why, other than i wish he was calling me and apologizing. i can't expect it from him, hes such an immature ass, and after what he said...thats so disrespectful of emily and everything that happened...i cannot forgive him for that. maybe we can be civil, but thats it. and that hurts like hell.
im sitting here and looking at emilys pictures until i cry. then i miss colorado. then i miss erik. then i remind myself i should stop caring for him. then that makes me sad. this fucking sucks.
i called him again today and left a message asking for all the pictures i dont have (rafting, etc.) i told him to either mail them to me, or if he cannot stand to spend the five bucks shipping, give them to you.
got a new job. ferg might front me some money for my own place... i just feel better about things for some reason... even though they're still pretty shitty.
im glad, babe. things are shitty for me right now, and a lot of people i know, so its good to hear that SOMEONE has things going right. :] i miss colorado like crazy.
i was so glad to be home to see emily, and andie//sarah, and her parents, but now its just...i don't have anything to distract me. i wish i had had the money and stuff to come home for the funeral and go back, but with only a week left, it was pointless... however, now im stuck at home and i've got no job to spend my hours on (or fights with erik to distract me...hah.)
speaking of, i wrote him a lovely email that summed up everything i told yall. that i know i said shit, but im only 19 and i just lost a friend, so i get some fucking leeway. i told him not to bother replying if he was going to bitch, but save the email he wrote for two months from now when i don't have two funerals to go to. he read it and didnt respond.
i called him yesterday. i don't know why, other than i wish he was calling me and apologizing. i can't expect it from him, hes such an immature ass, and after what he said...thats so disrespectful of emily and everything that happened...i cannot forgive him for that. maybe we can be civil, but thats it. and that hurts like hell.
im sitting here and looking at emilys pictures until i cry. then i miss colorado. then i miss erik. then i remind myself i should stop caring for him. then that makes me sad. this fucking sucks.
i called him again today and left a message asking for all the pictures i dont have (rafting, etc.) i told him to either mail them to me, or if he cannot stand to spend the five bucks shipping, give them to you.
aspidfjsdlk. got a new job yet?
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